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so here is my dilema;;
towards the middle of this school year i met this guy;; i knew of him but never met him;; he was transfered to my school 2nd semester;; his first day he came into my 2nd hour class {which is also his class} an i was sitting with my bestfriend an he was sitting with his boys but we kept staring at eachother an i was talkin to my bffl about him an he was talkin to his boys about me;; i thought he was cute but by first impression i thought he was probably a dog! he was asking his boys {whom i am also friends with} who i talk to or mess with ect. they told him noone. we talked casually as classmates;; he joked around sayin i looked me an i joked sayin i heard he was nasty;; from then on we became friends;; we joked an talked all day at school everyday;; after a few days i gave him my number;; later on that night he called;; from that night on we talked to eachother everyday after school for a long time;; we had some good conversations and would talk till we both were so tired we were fallin asleep. eventually the subject of hangin out outside of school came up;; my birthday was comeing up so we decided thats when we would see eachother outside of school;; it was the weekend on a friday we hung out that friday an saturday;; then everyweekend after that we were together;; not alone; usually my bestfriend an his {who were talking at the time} were with us;; sometimes it was jus friday night sometimes friday an saturday. after we would go home he would call an we would talk till we fell asleep. it was like that for about 2 months. never kissed;; hugged only once or twice but chemistry was deffinatly there. we kept everything low key for the most part but soon everyone found out,, including his ex, then problems started;; her an her friends calling an emailing me sayin he said he dosnt mess with me and he still mess with her an stuff along those lines. he always denied it being true. but i was begining to question his trust. the only reason i trusted him was because he never gave me a reason not too. plus he has trust issues;; he has ben thru alot and ben hurt by so many people he has a hard time trusting people an he hates liars and fake people so i didnt think he was like that. but after all that happend he stopped calling me as much, then one weekend we just didnt hang out.. then he got locked up;; sent to juvenille;; only for 10 days but when your use to talkin to someone and seeing them everyday it seems like forever. well his boys kept telling me i should write him to let him kno i was thinking of him so i did;; 7 pages;; i told him everything that was going on with me an his ex an how i felt an jus some other stuff;; he wrote me back saying he missed talking to me an how the letter smelled so good like the perfume i wear an how he wasnt ready for a relationship because he has ben hurt so much an im probably different but he has thought that before an still ben hurt. but he wanted to see me when he got out. but the day he got out he didnt call;; later that night i went to get him tho;; he had to watch his nephew so at first he couldnt come;; but then one of his boys came outside an was like dang he talks to u too? { makeing it sound like he talks to another girl besides me} an i got mad an then everything that happend when he was locked up came up an i was hot! i got so mad an flipped out on him;; so then he wouldnt talk to me for about a week maybe a lil bit longer. it killed me to know how mad he was at me an i know i hurt his feelings;; his boys even told me like what do you expect you would be mad if he kept accusin u of messin with your ex still! an they were right i would be mad;; but he has to understand when everyone keeps telling me stuff and he isnt around to defend himself an he was actin strange towards me for a while of course im gonna think sumthin is up! so when we got back to school i decided it was time to try and make things right. so i went an talked to him;; we made up but things still werent the same. we still didnt talk on the phone an there was definatly sumthing goin on between him an his ex;; mostly just arguing but still;; if they were over eachother then why?! things slowly got back to normal we started talking and flirting more at school;; we just got back to talkin on the phone.. and last night me and my friend {my friend use to date his big brother} we went over to his dad house to hang out with him an his brother {now this is the first time we have hung out since the big arguement,,} so its ben about a month. now it seems like everything is good like how it was before. but something inside me tells me that i shouldnt think to much about it.
i think that maybe he does like me as more then a friend but i think he still loves his ex an i kno she still loves him but if he wanted to be back with her in a relationship he could be but he hasnt;; so then that makes me think maybe he is over her. they were together for 2 years;; a real cute couple too. everyone thought they would always be together they would break up and go back out;; but this time she talked to another guy behind his back an he found out;; they have ben broke up since the end of december;; it finally seems like everything with them is comming to a fizzle. but im still confused... i dont know if he likes me or not! my bff asked him an he jus smiled really big and said he didnt kno. but if he didnt why would he waste all that time talkin on the phone all the time an hanging out all the time. i jus need an outside opinion;; someone that we are anonymous to an can jus give me their point of view,, tell me what you think! please & thank you
sincerely;
highschoolsweetheart
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Posted by highschoolsweetheart on 2008-05-05 14:59:25 | Rating: n/a | Views: 45
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