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Ok... So I have a question...
Hypothetically... put yourself in my shoes for a moment if you would please... 
I have this wonderful relationship with this wonderful guy... we get along very well (for the most part) and everything is running its normal relationship path... but lets say we were going accelerated speed for a bit because we wanted to be together even more then we were without a certain family member jumping on his case everytime he stayed at my house, and wasn't home to do whatever it was he had to do... so we rush into getting a place together... And now please join me for the accelerated downward spiral that was once known as a loving and caring relationship and is not amounting to him lying to me and us never seeing each other because he was working all the time, and I had no help around the apt, and sooooooo long story short... Lauren does something unforgivable (I thought about cheating, got into a guys truck, got to his house and said I'm sorry I cannot do this, can you please take me home) in his eyes... so we break up (we wouldn't have lasted much longer anyways... we were always at each other's throats).
Then comes the almost unbearable ... I mean I can't believe we survived it... 2+ months that we still lived together after we split up. He was going to move out, then I was, then he was... and then I finally DID on the 15th of December...
When I finally did... we were very civil... we talked on the phone a couple min here and there... (we had some loose financial ends to tie up... to say the least)... Then last Sunday happens... the night before Xmas eve... I see him driving while I'm driving and I do the honk thing until he sees me, and we wave. Steph and I go to the bar (of course my idea) at like 2ish-3ish in the afternoon out in Westland and I think about him, so I call him and he's at another bar... so Steph's gotta go home to eat crab legs and steak (sucha brat!!) for dinner, and I drop her off and go meet up with him for a couple drinks ... after all we were kinda *friends*, we both decided that we wanted to be friends, buddies... more then the hey how you doing kinda ppl, I guess you could say. Well once the drinks start flowing we start talking about where we went wrong... and we both decided moving in together fucked us all up... but I mean we still have lots of other shit to work on... I feel he needs to grow up to a certain extent, and I need to figure out what I'm doing with my life... career/going back to school wise... so we talk about all of this, and he is way to drunk to drive, so we go back to my ma's house... (where I am living again)... and spend a just amazing 3 hours hanging out in the living room with my ma and her boyfriend... just laughing and watching *40 year old virgin*... then every once and awhile we would go into the kitchen to get something more to drink and he was kiss me and tell me that he missed *this* and wants *it* back, and wants to forgive me for my mistake and I keep telling him he's drunk and I know once he gets sober he's going to act all weird, and he says no... I swear... This is what I want, I want us to be back together... we just can't live together yet... and I fall for it... He knows that I love him more than life it self and that it's music to my ears to hear him say that... so what do I do... Same thing I do every time... I freaking believe him... and he stays the night.
Next morning... of course... weirdness is lurking in the air -- not from me, but from him... and when I take him back to him truck Xmas eve morning I get a quick peck on the mouth and a "I'll talk to you later"... For the next couple of days I would call every once and awhile to see how his holiday was going, some times I would get him, sometimes I wouldn't, I'd leave a message... he'd call back. Pretty normal, right?
Well yesterday -- We were supposed to hang out after I got off of work... but he made other plans around 5:30ish, so I simply called him around 12:30am (because I knew he had been drinkin since 11am... and I wanted to make sure that he wasn't going to be driving home from New Boston) to make sure he was alright... Well a girl answered the phone... and that wasn't set me over the edge... it was the WAY she answered the phone... and let's just say -- Many phone calls later I decide I'm going to go drive out to where he is to get my cell phone back... (Yes, I am still paying for his cell phone because I'm a fucking IDIOT, and I felt bad that he didn't have a phone) but these games are ridiculous, and I was drinkin, so yes I drove all the way out there, and then realized he wasn't at the bar I thought he was at... so now I've basically wasted all this gas, and I tried getting him to meet up with me, and he wouldn't... And I got called everything under the sun... I'll name a few for you:
bitch, skank, slut, psycho, crazy ass, bar rat, whore, *psycho bitch*, fireman chaser, chear, liar... etc. And the kicker is... he was YELLING at me while he was in the car with his friends on the way back from the bar... you know -- to me it seemed like he was trying to be a cool, tough guy in front of his friends... but this is my whole thing...
How can he tell me what he told me on Sunday night, hang out with me and my ma and her bf, tell me how much he loves me and wants to be with me... and not even a week later call me all of those things???
I admit... I was in the wrong driving all the way out there, but I am just soooo mentally exhausted because to me it seems like he's playing head games with me, and I honestly didn't want any more ties with him... thus me trying to get the phone back at 2am...
So if you all could help me, I would oh so appreciate it so very much... Thank you... I don't even know what to do anymore...
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Posted by helen1282 on 2007-12-28 19:03:59 | Rating: | Views: 122
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bloody hell, sounds like you're in pretty deep, and it's hard to get out. Of course it's easy for me from an outsider's perspective to say that he's walking all over you and you should forget this loser and be with somebody who appreciates you - I'm coming to learn that respect is SO important. But I guess it's hard for you to let go and that's why you keep going back, because you think it'll be different. Bottom line is, it probably won't be and to be honest if a guy, drunk or sober, calls you those things, he's not worth a second glance - forget him please and move onto something more worthy of you!
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Posted by new_anonymous_tee...
on 2007-12-28 19:28:46
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Ahh, that sucks big time. The "friend" thing with an ex (I find) will get ya every time. I can relate - I think we all get (at least) one of "those guys". I would say, have the service cut off to the phone right away, but let him keep the phone itself. He isn't worth it. You can do much better - think of this as a stepping stone to a better relationship that will come along. I am sure you know you are not any of those hurtful things he said. Very poor taste on his part - not showing any class. I am so sorry for your hurt, keep your chin up - things will get better - its best to cut the tie (as hard as it is) and move right along.....from a girl who has been there :-)
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Posted by Lightworker1979
on 2007-12-28 19:32:08
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He sounds like you deserve better. I'll read your next post to see what happened.
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Posted by prelude2it
on 2008-05-19 23:12:15
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Wow... thought I'd read back on you ... and this post sounds so similar to where foty and I were when we were in our 20's prior to getting married...... I need to read on too.
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-08-08 20:48:50
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