What has caring ever gotten me? Nothing much actually. Caring is funny - it's not always returned, it hurts more when someone screws you, and you can't stop.

It feels like a disease, I need to stop caring. I need to be able to walk away and just let go of that aspect, but I can't. I want things to be right, I want to make amends even if I shouldn't be the one to do so. And there lies my downfall...People who care, are walked over, steped on and as far as I'm concerned, never get to achieve happyness. It's something that just gets in the way. I see it all around me, people who treat others like gum, a nice taste in the beginning then you spit it out when it turns dull...and it's more accepting to people then someone who tries to give you the world, finds something they should get angry about and then get spat on once they disclose it. Always the losing side, the one that cares. Always the one that hurts the most, the one that finds himself on the bottom of the shoe, always the one that doesn't feel they are getting ahead. Just stuck in the same cycle over and over again no matter what they try to do...

Maybe we are better off without this disease.