Asserting yourself.

When someone is in trouble, or is having a hard time…what keeps us from helping, what keeps us from moving forward and giving a pat on the back?

I was in homeland security today – border at Detroit because my aunt forgot her damn passport to get back into the country. No worries, we got taken care of. But while we were there, there was this girl who started to cry. Something in the back of my head told me, “GO – Go help her, rub her back, maker her feel welcome in this cold place” (Yes, they treated people like fucking criminals – like you didn’t deserve to be in this great country of some sorts…bah on them) But my body held back. Was I worried about rejection, that she might think I’m a creep for just walking up to a complete stranger and being close…it was awkward how much I felt the need to help, and yet hesitated so much because of possible bad outcomes from this women. Why are people so hard to confront?

Well, I did end up just saying screw it, and she got to enjoy a nice backrub for our 1 hour visit – we got to leave before she did, I actually do not know what happened to her….she had already been there for 2 hours, was crying and scared out of her mind. I Think I did a decent job of helping her out…she was all alone, they wouldn’t let her get her cell phone to call anyone…so I lent her mine…

That being all beside the point – I think that is one of my faults…I think about the consequences to much…though it can be a good thing…sometimes recklessness is necessary. I need to work on that.