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Today I was very surprised with my younger brother. He sent me a very sweet e-mail on Myspace. He is hardly around and I thought it was becuse he did not want anything to do with the family. All of us kids are pretty stubborn and do things our way. He saw that I had changed my name on there and he wrote me this e-mail. It made me cry. I have been so emotional lately and so sad and this really made me smile and feel better.
Single mommy??
So I was reading over your profile, because of that screen name of yours, and stumbled accross some blogage you wrote.
Some of it made me very sad. All of you make me sad more often than not. Life just seems to be such a struggle for all of us. Thats why I disappear all the time, or have a difficult time calling anyone or ever opening up when I do. Because we all struggle, I just have a hard time watching it. Everyone is always so down, and its because we keep forgetting we all still have each other. We all completely misinterpreted the way things were supposed to be. We were all so anxious to get up and get out that we forgot everything we were supposed to take with us.
This may all seem random, and I suppose it kind of is, but I do a lot of self reflection and I've realized a few things about life and this little world of ours. And while I may never really figure anything out, whether it be for myself or somebody else, just keep in mind that I love you.
I guess that was the whole point to all of this. Your brother is distant and crazy, but he loves you, and Derek. And everyone else.
Its just hard for me not to be sad when I'm convinced we could all be so much happier if we stopped trying to look behind the curtain.
Your brother,
It is amazing how little we really know about each other. This is the e-mail I sent back to him.
Hey
Yes single mommy. Cody and I are having lots of issues. I don't think we will be able to get past it. I hate that we are all so sad also. I think we are all always looking for something better and in the end hurting ourselves. I know I do that a lot. I keep looking for more than the wonderful things I have and taking them for granted. We do forget we have each other a lot and I think it is because in all actual fact we all grew up pretty quick. We took the initiative to do what we wanted no if's and's or but's. We never let each other help out. We all have our pride and I can do it myself attitude. I wish you would come around more and we all spent more time together. It's hard I know because we are sll so different but we do need each other. In the end all we have is family. We should all learn to talk more. and let each other help. Thank you so much for your e-mail. It made me smile and yes even cry a little. I have been an emotional wreck for the past few days. It's good to know that you do care adn are not avoiding us cuz you don't like us I hope you are coming over for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Take care of yourself and write more often. :)
I love you too
It is truley amazing the things you miss because you don't think anyone cares. or you are to busy to open your eyes and heart and let someone in. I just wanted to share this because My brother has never really opened up like that before. :)
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Posted by hazeleyes85 on 2009-10-29 21:27:55 | Rating: | Views: 23
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