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Vince
I am so sorry for being the way that I am. I would do anything for you. I would kiss the ground that you walk on. I would walk through fire just to see you, Feel your touch or kiss your lips. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone person. I never wanted to cause you any distress. I never wan't to call off our engagment but if It meant staying with you Its alright i understand. I am sorry that I don't know how to fix myself. I am so sorry that I dumped all the things I felt on you. I didn't know that you woulnt know how to handel it. I am sorry for everything. I should have never even opened my mouth. I shouldn't ask you whats wrong. I shouldnt care so much but I do. I cant help that I worrie about you but that i what someone does when They love someone as much as I love you. I wish my whole world didn't revolve around you but It does because I dont have anyone esle. I want friends and to be able to go out and have fun but I just don't have the means to do it. All my friends either dont like doing what I want to do or just dont have the time. I want to make new firends but I am afrid because I dont want to get into old habbits. I want to be able to trust people and just cant seem to as much as I want to. I love you so much sometimes it hurts. I do not want you to leave me, but if you can't handle that fact of who I am or that I have too many emotions I will understand why You will leave. It will kill me and I will have to make myself be happy for you and teach myself how to not call to make sure that you are alright, or that I love you. If it makes you happy Or what ever it would do I understand complealy. It will hurt like hell and I will cry for days but I understand. I just want you to be happy...even if that means that you are or are not with me. I will always be here and I am trying really hard to change and be a rock for you are...Just like you do for me. It doesnt seem like you are my rock when I cry, But you have no idea how much you help me buy just saying that you love me, support me, and that you always will. I am sorry that I take to hart all the bad things and sometimes can't let them go but with as fuck up of a life I have had i don't know how. I know that this isnt an excuse...But I mean it. Anyways I love you..More that you will ever know...I would go anywear, do anything, or whatever for you
I will always love you please remeber this always
Vickie
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Posted by havewingstofly on 2008-05-16 22:42:09 | Rating: | Views: 77
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