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Dear Carri,

I just wanted to write you a letter to let you know how I feel about everything. So where to begin........

I wanted to let you know that I never cheated on you. I feel bad for you that you allow my ex-girlfriends tell you things and then you believe them whole heartedly, like it was gospel. Ex's are ex's for a reason. Didn't you stop to think that what I actually told you about them was true? That they ARE liars and cheaters and that that was the reason that I got rid of them? There are 2 things in a require in a relationship: Honesty and Fidelity. I feel bad that you have ran around now for about the last year and a half, thinking that all the things they said were true when I even proved to you that they were lying to you. I feel bad that you allowed it to bother you and I feel bad that your family decided in your favor when they never got my side of the story.

I want you to know everything in the last few months that you did was wrong. You will never know how it made me feel to see a condom wrapper in the trash can. I know that I didn't use it. Even though we hadn't been sleeping in the same room, I still remained faithful to you. Even though you said that you didn't love me, I still loved you with all my heart. I worked 2 jobs to make life easier on us. I hated the fact that we struggled with bills and was hardly getting by. I did all that for us. And then to come home and get yelled at because I didn't take the trash out before I left for work or get yelled at cause I didn't do the dishes. I was hardly home, even on weekends. I was working, it wouldn't hurt you to do a little housework yourself.

I want you to know that how you ran off with our daughter was wrong. You hurt me in ways that I can not explain. You took a part of my life and ran and all because you have anger issues. Honestly, I believe you have mental issues as well. I hope you know when we step in front of the judge on the 16th of April that he will be mighty upset at you for running off like you did. He will know that this is the second time that you have kept our child from me and would not allow me to see her. She does need BOTH of us. I told you from the beginning that in order for this to work, we would have to do it together especially with her having Down Syndrome. Her and I have a bond just as you and her do. When you ran the way that you did, it reminded me of when Haley's mother took off with her while I was at work. I hope you will never have to feel the way that you have made me feel with this whole situation.

I also want you to know that you are a coward. If it wasn't for your grandfather, you would have NOTHING. There was a reason that I asked him for a renter's agreement when we moved into that house together. I thought that there was something fishy going on when he told me that he would not give us an agreement. And now, I am pretty much homeless because of your rage and not knowing how to compromise with people. You have NEVER had to sleep in your car when it was 25 degrees out at night. I have. You should have come to me and told me that you wanted me out by a certain date. No, you ran to your grandfather and had me thrown out with no notice. "Pack your stuff and get out in 2 hours or I am calling the cops." Lucky for me, my best friends are in Florida and they opened their home to me while they are gone for the next week.

Carri, bad people get what they deserve. You are going to have a rough life trying to take care of Addison all on your own. No man will put up with what I have with you. No man will want to be with you because the only thing that holds you up in life is your grandfather and the social security check that you get because of our daughter. Speaking of which..... I did turn you in to the Social Security office for you lying to them for the last year about me not working. I have worked 2 jobs since May of last year. I hope they press charges on you. I hope you end up in jail. I hope they fine the crap out of you. No man will want to be with you because you are irresponsible with your children. You have up custody of your first, gave your second up for adoption, you wanted to abort our daughter when we first heard that she MIGHT have Downs, then when you found out after she was born that she did have Downs, you wanted to give her up for adoption. Then a few months later, you went behind my back and had an abortion of another child that would have been mine.

You will have a miserable life. Especially when your grandfather dies. You know as well as I do that the rest of your family does not care about you because you can't do anything for yourself. You have sucked the life out of, and taken advantage of the rest of your family. You need to seek professional help for your anger and your other problems.

With all this said, I want you to know that I do love you and will always love you. You are the mother of our daughter. We ARE the perfect couple, just in the wrong situation. Maybe once you settle yourself down and realize that I bent over backwards for you and our daughter, you will realize that you were wrong. See you in court!

Love with all my heart,

Chris