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| This will be my final blog entry... |
Yes... the one and final one before I stop publishing this anymore. All the blog post I have posted are never happy... meaning to say, 2008 wasn't happy for me. Well, I have met a lot of new people, very happy too but some drifted apart for a couple of months knowing, others just have certain reasons of drifting. I on the other hand... did another David Banner again. Oh yes, finish helping someone, and just disappear where no one can reach me. I have... help so many people realize a few things about themselves. I also have brought some group of people together even. When I want to leave, they do "The Godfather Part III" on me - when I want to go out, they pull me back in.
Such times I smile when I know I am part of something... but there are such times I feel I am not worthy to be part of anything in anyone's life... rather, I just want to do something for a change for myself. I did that once before I met Suet. It was depressing. 3 years of it was depressing. I just don't feel like moving forward much... but that is more of I don't feel as if I want to move forward even. After I met Suet, everything changes. I change and became what I am almost to be. After her... I realize... I just know what I will end up as. I am too tired of the whole scenario of life... I just want to move into a whole, and be a nobody unlike now... I have become appreciated with friends. Don't ask me why, don't say I am stupid... it's just how I feel. That's me and I just want to lay low... and do the things I want and move away from this stupid country I was bored in...
5 years of making myself better... can I do it. Only time will tell if I can... and I wish I can even. I hope I can... and when I really can... well... I don't need to show anyone... I just move on with my life... and that's it... I don't need to prove anything. I really hated it when people just wants to know "hey, what's your job?' or "what's your background like?". Status, how much money you have... I feel that's all bullshit. I am lucky I have one group of friends that didn't think of me that way. Maybe because... I never think much of my best friend's background and we both have been friends for so long. Oh Kee Lin... the day you scold me shows that you really care as my best buddy. Nobody does that to me before except I always do that to others. Thanks buddy...
Where will I go? Not going to tell... what will I do? Not going to say. Guess it's just... a mystery I prefer and a secret I am going to keep it to myself alone. Who knows, you might find me in another blogger sphere... only this time, it's harder to find me now.
So I will be gone (again) for a plan of 5 years. And when it does... I probably will forget everything I ever know of this country. Thanks for reading... so long and goodbye.
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Posted by hairyLGS on 2008-12-31 22:13:40 | Rating: | Views: 49
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