My reflection of this blog is about how secluded I feel nowadays.

Being away from what I'm used to almost seems detrimental to my mental health [in my perspective of course].  I constantly long for the freedom I used to have and I really feel like it's been inhibiting my thoughts a whole lot.  I feel so constricted-like high school, but worse because I don't have the freedom of my car.

When I get out of this mental slump-and am exposed to and have access to all the freedom I am accustomed to, I don't want what happened the past two years to happen again!  This is the point where I say that I feel like I have certainly matured.

You really do take things for granted easily.  And it is not until you don't have it that you realize how much you appreciate[d] it.  So for me, right now, I am appreciating all life and all freedoms.  It feels good, but I can only wait to accept when I have and can fully excercise all life and all freedoms.  [which is soon!]

I'm happy to be learning these self-dicipline lessons and am very thankful to be learning it in such a controlled environment, I feel like it is, in fact, much safer.  However, I have this tendency to forgive quickly because I somehow always see how there can be another chance-I'm quite optimistic in that way, no?  I'm just waiting for people to get on the same level.  I'm not going to lie, it makes things quite difficult.  So for now, I am suppressing negative thoughts and looking for the great and wonderful in everything.  I am not up to date on a lot of things nowadays, but I am gaining so much more personally like learning about myself and learning how to deal with different people, different difficult people.  This is the new challenge-staying sane under pressures of insanity.