WOO HOO!  No more sick!  Fever broke, feel like a new person!  Except now I have to go back to work tomorrow...grrrrr.  Went to a baby shower today.  My little bro is finally joining the fatherhood ranks.  Gonna be a little girl. Can't wait!  Makes me want another one.  Actually, J and I have been discussing this for about a year now.  He's never been married or had a child.  On one side of my brain, I'm thinking...a baby?  Why would I want a baby when MY baby is 15?  The other side of my brain says J needs to be a father and think of all you've learned since the last one...it'd be a piece of cake and you could correct all your past mistakes and.....BUT A BABY??  3am feedings, stinky ass diapers, sore boobies, 18 more years of Mom, can I have....? Mom, will you get me a ....?  Another college fund...Oh my.  Decisions decisions.  I wouldn't really mind it though.  I had my babies early, I'm pretty much a home body now anyway, except for work, and it's financially feasible.  Maybe I'll do it.  Of course, that would all depend on the success of reversing the tubal ligation I had 15 years ago.  That's a $5500 procedure, by the way.  But it would be well worth it for a new little one.  It'd have to be a girl though.  That's really my biggest fear is that I would have another boy.  Not that boys are bad or anything, but I think J would be too hard on it if it was a boy.  He was raised a little rough by his father and I'm not sure I could handle that with ours.  I would constantly be buffering and I'm afraid that would lead to endless arguments for us.  So that's a major thing to consider as well.  Of course, he's getting a little softer nowadays so maybe I've got it all wrong.  I'll have to make up my mind soon, though.  I'm not getting any younger.  One of the girls at the shower today was telling me her mom went in for an annual check up and found out she was 7 weeks pregnant.  The girl that was telling me is the baby of 4 and she's 22!  Could you imagine?  She said her mom's still pretty upset about it (her mom is 47).  The girl that was telling me about it is also pregnant, so her mom will be a grandmother and a mother of infants.  Crazy.

Okay, so for an update on the change one:  I kinda slipped on the soft drink thing today, that was all they had to drink at the shower, so I had a glass of Coke.  But other than that, I've done well.  Also haven't bit my fingernails either.  So tomorrow's change is NO MORE FAST FOOD EVERYDAY.  I generally stop at McD's on my way to work every day and get a sausage/egg biscuit with Strawberry Jelly and a large sweet tea (thank you, $3.18 at the first window please).  So I went to the grocery today and got some healthy cereal and whole wheat bread and some fr..fru...frui...fruit (sorry, had a hard time spitting that out).  So, I'm gonna make my tea at home in the morning, eat a bowl of cereal with low fat milk and fruit and a piece of healthy toast.  Saves me $19.08 per week too! (Based on a six day work week, but usually I work 7).  Gonna do the same for lunch.  Got me some frozen entrees and low fat/low cal soup to take.  That'll save me another 5 bucks per day too!  Maybe I'll do my "food diary" on here instead of on paper.  That was the number one trick that Weight Watchers taught me.  If you honestly write down everything you put in your mouth, you will eat less.  Trust me on this one.  The week before I started WW, I wrote down everything that I was consuming on a daily basis for that week.  You'd really be surprised how much stuff you stick into your body over the span of a week.  That WW is really a good plan.  I just got tired of the meetings.  That support group shit just didn't help me any so I thought it was a waste of money.  But I did it on my own for a while after I stopped going to the meetings and I lost just as much.  I still have all the tools, maybe I'll get back on that too.  Well, gotta go do some laundry, yeah!  J, just got back in town Friday and then deer hunted all weekend.  Get to repeat this again for this week coming up so I need to reload his suit case.  Thanks for listening...mh.