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mm. so. the situation with rob, 50/50. steph came back last night and apparently they got into a fight and told eachother to fuck off and not to talk to eachother.. do i believe that, not so much. but he did sleep over the night before and maybe he was too drunk or just didn't want to do anything, it's not like i wanted to mess around with him but i thought it would've been different, he didn't even try to kiss me. it's like ever since new years things have been completely different so i take it new years only made it worse. he ended up calling me last night he was just down the street at his buddies and wanted me to come over a smoke a doob with him & quite personally i don't like being high unless i'm drunk. but yeah about the phone call, i guess it was more like a confrontation and he told me that he wanted us to go somewhere with the whole situaiton and i told him, well i guess i told him i want to too. it's just before me and him talked about the situation so much and what should've happened we just talked about.. like screw that. i told him straight up if you want something to happen then go for it, he wants to.. awesome. he doesn't, i think i'll live. what's the point like i said, i'm gone after the summer. best part of this whole situation, this morning i asked him do you remember anything from our conversation last night.. " uhh.. yea.." complete bullshit. whatever i don't think i care that much.

speaking of me going away after the summer, orientation for george brown is on the 14th. i'm just nervous considering they haven't accepted me yet. st. lawrence friggen cancelled their program so fuck that college. i'm just super nervous about college.. i really really hope i get accepted.

onto a new boy. i'm not sure if i'm interested but i think there's something there. gage. he's super cute, such a cute laugh and smile & he makes me laugh so hard. i think me and him are gonna hang this week so i hope it'll turn out alright..

so beautiful, chauvenistic & vain - i call it true love, but you call me insane