Its been an uneventful past couple of weeks and I havent been around thoughts.com much!  I just havent had a lot to say.  I'll write about whats been going on in the past few days. 
   
J has been somewhat depressed the past two nights.  He processed a horrific crime scene two days ago and even though he doesnt say it, I know it affected him.  A dead inmate was found in his cell - beaten to death with the end of a broomstick. His skull was bashed in - top of his head looked like ground beef.  There's more, but its disturbing and heart breaking.   Long story short - J had to collect evidence, instruct his staff as to what photographs to take of the scene, etc. He got a very close up look of what was left of that poor man.  
 
The victim was an inmate in his early 30's. Yep, he was locked up because he did something wrong.  But even then, I hope that God forgives him... he suffered a horrible death. 

So anyways, J worked a little late yesterday and the day before which was when that incident happened. He didnt really want to eat and he hung out by himself a lot more than usual.  He said he was gonna go downstairs to just surf and chill out by himself. I told him ok, I asked him not to get drunk . And he didnt!  So I was happy about that. 
It seems he's trying.

Tonight as you know, is new years eve.  We're not doing much.  I think we will be getting pizza and making it a pizza night with us and the kids.. and I also have a fancy cupcake kit and Im thinking of making the cupcakes and letting the kids help decorate them. 

I hope J is in better spirits tonight. I dont expect him to just get over what he saw, but I wish he could be happy. I hope that we could all sit around and eat pizza and have family conversations, etc and that he wont be sitting there with a long face... or worse - I hope he doesnt tell me that he is going to go downstairs to be alone.   

But if he does, Im just gonna take it in stride. I mean, theres not a lot I can do about it. Im certainly not gonna pick a fight over it. I'm just happy that I will be spending new years eve with my kids and that we are all happy and healthy and have each other. Thats good enough for me !