These are my thoughts on my wife. 

The year I am uncertain of but the accounts I will never forget I was working for a gas company as a customer service rep. One night I order a pizza to be delivered to the store when I was on the phone there was this soft voice on the other end and I flirted with her the next thing I knew I was dating this woman well she introduced me to this friend she had by the name of Vicki I was in love and lust at first sight. Vicki was beautiful long blonde hair deep brown eyes and a smile that would melt my heart in a second well we argued right off the bat we couldn’t see eye to eye on anything but I felt alive around her I was dating her friend and did not do anything but I wanted her so badly we went swimming once and I flirted very hard with her but still never did anything. The summer ended and the woman I was dating moved off to college and we broke it off. I then moved in with a woman that was 10 years older than me and was seeing her now I tried to block Vicki out of my mind but it was no use. Vicki was a senior in high school and was a drill team member one night I decided to go see her perform at a high school football game I watch as she danced I can tell you to this date I cannot for the life of me remember the game score or anything else that night but that she was beautiful and sexy as all get out. The next few months she would come by after school where I worked and talk to me and hang out I never wanted her to leave to be honest well Vicki and I started to see each other and I was still living with this older woman I was going nuts so I prayed to the lord for peace and for a wife shortly after that he answered my prayer and I moved out of the house and in with my friends. Vicki went off to college and we talked way into the night on the phone and we wrote back and forth. I would visit her in college when I could and she would sneak down and stay with me on weekends. Well a few years past and Vicki got pregnant I was so scared to death I did not know how to be a father yet I have managed to raise three beautiful girls so far with Vicki or I should say she raised them I’m still fumbling around in the dark trying anyway on dec 24 1996 I asked Vicki to marry me and she said yes I’m still trying to figure how I managed to get her to say yes. Well it’s been 10 years of marriage and almost 16 years together and Vicki and I separated it was my fault for I look back and I must say that the lord gave me a good wife she was put through hell by me and came through it she was in it with me when she did not have to be she took care of me when I was down and brought me up every time she stood by me when other would have left screaming. Vicki was the half of me that I needed but abused and broke her heart and trust for I was a bad husband I tried to control I tried to be in charge and all I had to do was to share and open up my heart. I pray my marriage is not over with her and the lord allow us to fix it but if it is not Vicki’s will it won’t happen for god will not change a person’s will. I write this incase any man or woman reads it that if you love your spouse but do not know how to talk or show love I have been there and if you need help I will pray with you and for you. This pain in my heart I feel is the loss of my wife and I would have no other person feel this way if I can help it I cannot tell you how to fix your marriage or your relationship and I won’t try but I will be here for you if you need it. The love of a good wife is a painful thing to lose. So I hope the lord is with all who read this and my prayer is with you all.