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Yesterday was the X's birthday.. well today since I still haven't been to sleep. It was really hard telling him happy birthday because. he really wanted to hang out with me and I couldn't. I keep telling him that I can't hang out with him because it doesn't help me. I dont know what to do anymore. I can't hang out with him because it just gives him hope and he feels like he can get me back or something and he can't!! But he is just bad news or something... oh well. So I start work on Saturday.. kinda excited for that.. So I need to go down to the clinic or something cuz D keeps busting in me. I think he thinks I am on Birth Control. I really need to be on it though!! Like idk.. Thats three times in a week ina half! So I need to do something about it.. I've been thinking about it and its just not working. Wow how do I get this boy off of my mind. He keeps coming in and I can't keep him off my head. I just think about him all the time.

I just think that I should start focusing on school and working again. I want to move out in 10 months, I keep arguing and getting along with my parents. I can't handle it anymore. I feel like its ripping mine and my moms relationship up. I can't like her and then be mad at her, I can't enjoy her as a parent when she can't trust me as a daughter. I dont know. I have so many family problems right now that I don't even know who to talk about. I can't concentrate on one person because there are too many people to talk about. SO Im going to go to bed because Now Im in a little bit of a bad mood.

Ill keep you posted.
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