Thoughts.com Blogs - Have you seen me?

Caught a reflection of myself today...I think it's been 3 years since I've seen me. I've been missing from my presence for some time now. I regularly check milk cartons and Amber alerts for myself. I asked my kids if they've seem me recently, but they just smile and tell me "there you are!" They have such conviction, these days. It's like they can recognize me in a crowded room. Amazing!! I've looked, but nothing. Friends have been known to have seen me at the Grocery store. I checked there, but I just find some grouchy woman, hauling around some whiney kids. That is hardly me, if I remember me correctly. My neighbors have told me they have seen me at school, the park, and the softball games. All I find is some crazy lady that looks like she is in need of a break, - stressed out, hair uncombed, rather disillusioned at times. I don't remember me being so frazzled. My husband said he recently saw me in the laundry room, but to my recurrent dismay , some terrets spewing loon is only to be found.

I recently started redecorating my home. It's lovely. Pond in the back giving great reflection from the sky. Rooms with mirrors throughout the house. Glass top tables that seem to show finger tip smudges. Shiney black appliances - sparkling. But that's not where I saw my reflection today.

My children are so beautiful. I don't mean their faces.....although they really are beautiful. I mean, on the inside. They are such loving creatures, setting free all the trapped spiders and crawly things inside my garage. They have made a collection, and planned a neighborhood bug parade - equipt with wagons, bug catchers, rollerblades and flags. They even constructed a banner to carry on their quest. Prior to this big 'Bugs For a Free Life' demonstration, my daughter found a grasshopper with a leg that had detached. She came to me with teary eyes. She could feel it's pain and needed to help her injured green friend. So, she asked me if I could help her glue his leg back on......Of course we didn't add insult to injury. But it was in her concern and gentleness that I shed a tear too. Her heart was broken with the idea that no one could mend 'Hoppy's' pain. She felt compassion for it's disability. It was in her soul, in her spirit, in her eyes that I saw my reflection. It was a moment of honor.
And how beautiful.....that I have a spider free garage....LOL. And in the future, if any of you happen to spot me, could you let me know? I'm still looking.....