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This is the last straw

I can't do this anymore, my heart has been crying and bleeding for too long. I like him a lot, I would've given him everything and anything. But an ungrateful bastard that he is, he just takes and takes until there's nothing left for him take and now he leaves me hanging for the second time. I have nothing left in me, my heart is empty, I have no more love in me, all that is left behind are sadness, disappointment and anger.
Sadness because I he's the one that I can never truly have, even though I've given him everything. I've gone against my belief and principle for him. I have crumbled my pride for him. I've wasted time, energy and tears for him. I tried so hard so that he feels the same way, but all I am to him is an object.
Disappointment because I thought he was the one. I've put him up in a pedestal, I thought highly of him. I thought he was the greatest. He was the cutest, the smartest, the nicest guy I 've ever been with. But I was wrong, it was all an act. He acted like he cares and I was flying high, but it was all lies.
Anger because he is such a selfish and ungrateful piece of shit. I'm angry with the way he treated me. I thought I was special. He's the perfect and the sweetest guy when he 's around me, but when I'm not around he condescend me. I feel betrayed because I thought he was the one to trust, the one that I can share the most special and private moments with, but he sees it all as fun and games.
He was special to me, and I thought he felt the same way about me. I always knew that I have more love in my heart for him than he did for me,but I always thought that he had to at least care about me as a person.
But I was wrong again.
I should've let him go for good the first time I lost him. I shouldn't have crawl back to him. He hasn't changed, he just gotten worse. I wish things would've stayed the way it was, I wish he feels the same way the felt about me before. It's painful to look back at the past and see how things are today, but life goes on.
It's over, I'm done.
He was everthing I wanted: Mr.cool guy with the pretty face, the cool humor, the overly confidence-almost cocky and the charm, but I forgot the most important things that he unfortunately doesn't have: love for me and a heart. Good Bye..............