I know he's not the right one for me, deep inside I know I can't trust him. So I should be grateful that I found somebody else who seems to be more deserving of my love. But I'm so stubborn, I'm thinking with my heart instead of my head. I'm losing grip of the old one because the new one came barging in into my life without looking both sides of the street. I should be happy, this might be my chance to find true love but I can't stop thinking about the old one. How good he was to me, how much I liked him and I still do. He was the sweetest guy I have ever met, and I like the way our relationship was. It was never written in a piece of paper how we feel about each other or where we're going with it. We just go with the flow, and the flow was favoring me, we were going slow but steady. Everything was perfect. He was a prize,a  gold, someone special, I have never so loved and cared for.
Then somebody came along and ruin everything. I know he has the potential to be better than the old one, but you know what..I DONT WANT to take a chance with the new one. IT"S NOT FAIR..I was happy, why can't everyone just let me be.
And now things have changed with the old, he has gottten colder towards me.
I'm really annoyed with the whole situation. and everyone seems to take control over everything: my friends, the old guy's friends AND the new guy's friends.
They don't know what I want or who I want. and I can't say anything about it because my relationship with the old one is buried deeper than Hitler's body and  it will always stay down there.
It's tearing me inside and there's nothing I can say or do about it to him or ANYBODY.
If I don't talk to the old one about how I feel, I probably going to lose him out of misunderstanding. If I do talk to him about it, it will be the first time we're talking about how I feel about us, and spilling my guts to a table in front of him is not exactly a good idea because that wil just scared him away.
so it's a lose-lose situation.
and the new guy? I don't really give a damn for now....
this is the feelings that I have to fight and carry alone, for the first time, I have no friends to support me and help me up...