everything in this world is temporarily: friendship, relationship, love, hate, pain, happiness, pretty much EVERYTHING. I'm not very close to my family, so instead I turned all my love to my friends. My friends are my everything. I have two handful of bestfriends, a few good friends and tons of acquaintances. But lately I have looked back and realized that many bestriends turned into acquaintances.
The other day I run into an ex-bestriend. a couple of years ago she was my number one friend. We used to spend so many time together, she knew everything that there's to know about me and I trusted her with every secret, every details of my life. But when I saw her again after god-knows how long. we just hugged and looked at each other with akwardness. there was silence....neither one of us said anything. That's when I realized I've lost her. I then looked at the group of friends that I'm hanging out now. I've only known them for no more than a year, but it was as if I've hung out with them all my life. seems good right?
But I know better, this friendship will not last forever.
My number one girl right now is also slipping. I feel like I've lost her, but I've gained more trust and friendship with my other "good girlfriends" funny huh? why can't we all be bestfriends together and forever. I realize that over time we all grow up and people change..I change.
I know that I'm always surrounded by people, but sometimes I do feel lonely because I feel like we're not gonna be friends forever. I'm afraid for when that day will come, when I'll lose all my bestfriends, forgotten by my good friends and just left with all my acquaintances.