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I'm trying to see how long I can go without calling him or seeing him. The truth is I miss him so much that I think about him everytime and all the time. But he probably hasnt thought about me once since the last time I saw him. Sometimes I wonder how did I get to be so obessesive and pathetic over one guy. One guy that I know is wrong for me. I have lost all hopes for him, I know there never will be an "us", the only thing that is left behind now is my love for him. I don't care if I can never really have him. If all I can have is him as a friend, I'll take it. If all I can have is his body not heart, I'll take it. If all I can have is hearing his voice once a month, I'll take it.
I've lost it, I've lost myself.
In front of him, I feel so hopeless.I have no self respect, no shame, no pride, no principle. I can only stand there like a fool while he stripped me off my pride and my clothes.
I like him so much, I care so much about him that I'm willing to bend so low for him just to see him happy, satisfed or even amused.
I have to wait at least one more week before calling him again. |
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Posted by girlytiff on 2008-02-20 23:44:16 | Rating: | Views: 63
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