36206 Blog Feed: gilbertseyes 2008-09-09 22:09:52 gilbertseyes Your e-mail address 148969 2008-09-09 22:36:52 wondering why I feel uninspired I struggle to realise that it is all in my mind. It feel so physical, my chest is tight, my eyes are weeping and my hands are weak. I try to tap, one letter at a time. It makes no difference, the words wont come. They won't come because I am so afraid that they are unworthy, insufficient and cramp.

But worse than that is no words at all. Average words can be shaded and revised a beautiful and intelligent construction can emerge from the ashes of my mind.

Just start and type away, you will get there, just one word and more will follow. ]]> 133924 2008-08-06 03:01:01 Wipping round my mind.
Jutting up the slop
cutting into my finger.
What can I do, I can't stop.

Shrill pitch.
That snitch.
Wipping through my heart
stopped dead!

No inbetween?
I can't go ahead
I don't want to go back
But I still want something,
what can I do? ]]> 117816 2008-07-02 23:53:25 Sitting silently, your shoulders bowed.
My mouth crinkles and my heart flutters,
     sitting there silently something within me sturs.

How lucky, how fortunate!
something so slight
     it  prevokes so much thought.
Both joyful and sombre,
     it manifests, content.

Looking beyond the tranparent sheld.
The stillness within soothes
       against the oratory fight that manifests beyond our view.
Alone in our togetherness we meet in our embrace,
        my mouth crinkles and my heart flutters.
]]> 99845 2008-05-22 07:28:49 Like me and  you in lines along the wall
Love is in my mind and rose
Curled around and purring like a cat
In love entwined together
Outside the box looking in,
  in it the mundane, our love is expressed

Lying out, looking up and looking down.
The two of us alone in wait,
and then a rush, our hearts entwined.
The tenacious cat now lies out flat and purrs
]]> 84763 2008-04-09 04:29:00 I could go on.
If you would hold me forever,
I could go on.

If  I could just glimps you,
out of the corner of my eye,
I could go on.

But you cannot say,
I can't go on.
You cannot hold me,
but I have to go on.

For with out me, you will be gone,
if I don't go on,
who will remember !

]]> 84415 2008-04-08 09:04:15 Feel me.
Blanc twice,
Noir always?
ubiquity and nothingness.

my paradigm is an an anacronism.
touch me.
want me,
I need that now.

Listen.
Senseless, uninspired.
you just don't know,
couched in my dispare ...

combusted in poles
Blanc, noir dread!



]]> 84410 2008-04-08 08:48:35 There was a girl, and she dreamed of all she would become. And I say would, because we all makes choices and our dreams we will have a role in the formation of our future.  the places she would go, the feelings she would experience, the smells sensations and tastes  the world would bring into her life, and the utter joy one can get from just living in the world.

This will be a story of all the experiences that make you who you are, day by day, crisis , love, dreams they will all be recorded and will form the greatest story that can be told, one of a life lived!

dreams...
]]> 83915 2008-04-07 03:29:00 drifting...waning...waxing
the velvet centre of our time
swinging...singing...lullaby

bursting...streaming...growing
The Goddess of our waking hours
rising...singing...surrounding


behind and above and below and inside
intwined and emerging from within and without
the sphere of our knowing is beyond your control

embrace the flame, and crush the jewell
impossibility is our only retreat ]]> 83914 2008-04-07 03:17:42
Deep breaths... Deep breaths!




]]> 82586 2008-04-03 06:05:00
What does everyone think about this . I would love to hear everyones opinions.

: )

cheers
]]> 82191 2008-04-02 17:15:00
But hopefully some day I will, optomism that is the order of the day!



]]> 82187 2008-04-02 16:35:00 ...yeh the title actually has nothing to do with what I am writing about today. I just like the word sycophantic, it has pscho connotations. I love a bit of psychosis.

Anyway back to my problem. I am having alot of trouble writing at moment which is rather a large problem as that is the purpose of 2008. I have to write a 20,000 thesis. Now, I have lots of things to say about my general topic of research. However, the first chapter has to be a liturature review, which basically requires that I talk about all the significant contibution made to the area of reseach, which in my case is nationalism and national identity. I am really struggling with writing about other peoples work, it makes me nervous. This nervosis  is strange as this ( writing about other peoples work) is pretty much all one does in their undergraduate work. Actually while I am nervous, it is probable more a feeling of being overwhelmed that is blocking my writing, there are just so many people who have written about nationalism and national identity, but most of the significant theorising is done in relation to europe, and I am writing about Australia, which is unique, due to many complicated and relational factors. AHHH... I am nervous of misinterpreting or oversimplifying theories that have taken 300 pages of a published text to flesh out.

Anyway... I went to my friends hens night a little while ago, it made me feel really old, very happy for her, but really old. She is marrying a great guy, and she is a wonderful person, it is really glorious when you see two people happy who really deserve to be so. I was so happy while celebrating that I drank a bit to much and spent the next day in bed, I don't think I have ever felt so ill, and to add insult to injury there was NOTHING on television.

Coke (the beverage) is really a wonder drug for hangovers, but its soothing effect it has on an alcohol ravaged stomach does suprise me given the well knowen corrosive properties it possesses.

Well thats enough rambeling.
  ]]> 79980 2008-03-27 00:25:11
"Ignorance of everything which goes to make up the 'mood of the age' produces a derealization of works: stripped of everything which attached them to the most concrete debates of their time (I am thinking in particular of the connotations of words), they are impoverished and transformed in the direction of intellectualism  or an empty humanism"
(bourdieu, 1993:32)

]]> 79974 2008-03-27 00:02:41 What is happening to western society?

"The social guarantees of the welfare states of an earlier era are breaking down, new capitalism itself has become economically flexible, highly mobile and corporate structures are less determinate in form and structure" (R Sennett, 1997)


]]> 75599 2008-03-16 06:54:27  The willow and the moss.
Suddenly,
in stasis, like her stream.

It is still, it is still.

With wings of freedom upon her back,
she cast those eye's upon her velvet prize.

Up.

Crashing down and leaping back,
she crossed the void.

And then,
the end?

The bloated sky burst forth,
bound by wind and rain around.

Yet now,

with heat and warmth, Embrace!
The star of the day will save the quest.

The ice and rain,
now haze and steam,
subsided!
Reveals her stream again
]]> 73828 2008-03-11 01:36:16 I am just listening to The Beatles classic "All you need is love". I highly recommend this song, It always cheers me up. You do not need to love someone romanitically to be unlifted my this number. My heart just lifts a bit, and I feel hope.  And even just the smallest amount of hope can save anyone, and pull them into the light.
]]> 73827 2008-03-11 01:32:18 Benedict Anderson (1983)

"Yet void as these tombs are of identifiable moratal remains or immortal souls, they are nonetheless saturated with ghostly national imaginings"
]]> 71311 2008-03-05 00:09:58 www.youtube.com/watch
]]> 70862 2008-03-03 18:37:56 You're appalled by bullying? Speak up, every time. You weep over homelessness, disadvantage and poverty? Ring up any of the charities responding to these problems and ask what you can do. (They might need you to drive a minibus, peell spuds, sort clothes or serve meals for a few hours a week.) You think society is suffering from too much busyness, too little courtesy, too little eye contact? Or that Loyalty and honesty are things of the past? You think it's outrageous that people don't even know their neighbours' names?

There's no magic wand. You exist in a circle.
Join the dots!

]]> 70838 2008-03-03 17:25:45 Nationalism grew from the marriage of state and culture ( Ernest Gellner, 1995) . What does this mean for us? Well, this marks the beginings for the concept of nationhood, national identity and but also a new form of social exclusion.  Nationalism is a modern form of social organisation, and relies on a common 'high' culture and a shared method of communication, an imagined community (Benedict Anderson). This idea of the imagined community seeks to explain how it is that you as an Australia, America, Irish, English person can feel a connection with other country women/men etc. that you have never, met will never see or communicate with, yet the nation relies on your ability to imagine these people, your fellow country women/men etc. exists and you share a national identity and values and beliefs that encompass the character of your nation. However today, in globalisation theory and post modernism, there is a argument that the nation and nationalism is in decline due to the forces of our modern society global economies new communiation technologies such as the one I am using now, and global warming. All of these issues cause for a breaking down of national symbolic boundaries and an opening uo to other communities ourside of the national. This is true in some senses but other events such as 9/11 have also had the oposite effect, in causing nations to rebuid and strength national boundaries and reassert the power of states with alliances between nations, that actually in my opinion reinforce the nation as the significant form of social organisation at least in the western world.

Why is this important? and what should we wish for? Nationalism is both good and bad an the concept does not just refer to violent uprising and revolutionary groups, we flag nationalism as Australian or americans, when we sing our national athems or barrick for our national team, even on this website people define themselves in some way in relaiton to their country of origin and are in essence flagging their nationhood and reasserting the significance of the nation in our current global world.  So nationalism is not better or worse on the front the the globalised or individualised world people can imagine it is just a product of the modern world . Nationalism was first fully fledged as we understand it , in a global sense, oday in the early 20th century , although we see early examples in the french and american revolutions however these coutries were not fully imagined as national communitites until the event of industralisation.  This discussion in also important as it can allow us to understand recent events with the creation of Kosovo as an independent state, but is also can help us understand where we are going into the future. ]]>