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Okay, talking to Cheb this evening, and hearing that her course is nearing its conclusion has me realising just how close we are to..well, everything.
Eight weeks and she is moving here for good...12 weeks ish and Stan will be here. 15 weeks ish and Cheb will be at Uni.
Suddenly...I'm scared. Like, seriously scared. Not scared in the sense of 'oh, this isnt what I want'...scared in the sense of 'oh God, am I up for this? Am I gonna be any good at it?'
I always feel like I've had that moment, that thunderbolt realisation that I've met the woman of my dreams, and that I'm gonna be a dad. But even now, those moments keep on coming.
I lie awake at night thinking about that little person...that little person that I helped to create and it chokes me up, I am literally welling with joy and with pride.
It feels wrong to be so scared but I cant help it. I guess its human nature. I'm 44 nd finally...I have everything I want. What if I screw it up? What if I let Cheb down, and our boy? What if, what if, what if...ahhhhh
I sent Cheb some photos today and she cried when she saw them her mum tells me. She's been wanting a picture of the two of us for a while and I finally got them devloped. I have uploaded on (in a sense) for you to see.
My lady is here in 20 days
I cant wait to hold her x |
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Posted by geordiedreamer on 2008-04-30 19:06:44 | Rating: | Views: 58
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you wont mess up and there is no way you'll disappoint her!! You two are perfect together, and you'll both make the perfect parents :D Good luck!!!
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-05-02 03:59:24
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