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Hi all...hope everyone is well and happy as I am this morning. Just thought I'd write another quick blog before I head off back to the hospital.
Cheb got told off by the nurse, her mum and half heartedly by me (I can't be mean to her!) yesterday for sneaking off to the internet cafe, when she should be in bed! She sends her apologies to anyone who might have commented on her blog or emailed her, and would like me to assure you, she will be back soon! In the meantime I've told her I'll write for the both of us, keep people updated and such.
So I spent most of yesterday afternoon (after I woke up after finally sleeping!) at the hospital. Cheb was asleep when I got there so I went to have a little look at Stan, who was also sleeping.
I tell you what...he is just beautiful. He absolutely takes my breath away every time I look at him. Its like...I forget just how gorgeous he is, and then I go see him again and it hits me. The way his mouth is, its like he's smiling, all the time. And he has such a lot of hair. He wriggles his toes and his fingers and blows bubbles. He's just incredible, my little miracle.
The doctor came to see me and we had a good chat. There were just some things I needed to be aware of, but being the sensitive soul I am, I had kinda already been thinking of some of them.
Like how Cheb couldnt wait to give birth. It was an experience I think she has waited a long time to have. Pregnant was not a new thing, the birth would have been. But of course she had to have a c-section. So she might be disappointed, in the fact that she didn't give birth naturally. Not that shes not glad he's here, or wouldnt agree that any way he gets here is good so long as he's safe, of course...just that she didnt experience the whole birth thing. Understandable, I think.
Then there's the fact that she may not have been quite ready yet, I know I wasn't. It was all incredibly early, and she might worry about college and such.
Then there's the fact that she can't hold him yet, that's the one thing I think we are both waiting for, we want to hold him, cuddle him.
So that, coupled with the pain and discomfort she will be feeling, might lead to some sad times, some tears and such, and I am ready for that should it happen. I know that after the birth is a rollercoaster of emotions, and I know to look out if it seems as though those emotions are starting to get a little extreme. I am ready to be here for them both in any way I can be, and nothing will ever be too much trouble.
So...I went back to see Cheb and she was awake so we went to see Stanley again (still sleeping) and sat with him for a while. Cheb put her hand in to stroke his face and he nuzzled it and then opened his eyes and as she predicted, he has my eyes...big brown shiney eyes. Now...I have to say...in my younger days, my eyes attracted girls like bees to honey. Soo many women told me I had amazing eyes...so he will be fine when it comes to the lady folk, lol x He seemed to look right at her and like I say...he seems to smile. The nurses tell us hes quite a happy baby, not a wailer (thank God!). He cries when he wants something, and as soon as thats tended to (whatever it was) he stops. Perfect! Hmm...wondering now how long that will last...I'm thinking the moment we get him home he will turn on us and scream the house down every night. I don't care though, I really don't. Bring it on.
He's a fiesty little man, and they tell us quite strong. He is small, because he was so early, but he's not too small and it won't be long before hes caught up. He's gonna be fine, I have no doubt of that.
Through the afternoon there was a steady influx of visiters - Cheb's friends from college, her sister and such...and then it was back to the three of us. We held each other for a while and watched him gurgling and wriggling and I was thinking...I can't be believe it could get better than this...but I know it will, because it is, all the time...
Cheb's mum popped by late afternoon and told Cheb she needed to borrow me for a while. I followed her, confused, and she took me to a pub across the road from the hospital. She brought me a drink and we toasted Cheb and Stan...and then she told me she had just wanted to thank me for bringing Cheb back to life, for being 'all that she needs', for being there for her when she needed me most and for Stanley.
I was so moved I didnt know what to say, so I thanked her, after all...if it wasnt for this woman, Cheb would not exist and I would not be the happy fulfilled man I am today.
So I stayed with Cheb until they chucked me out again, dropped in on my son on the way out and headed back to her mums.We sat and watched TV while she showed me the family photo albums, filled with pictures of Cheb as a baby and a child (is that a mum thing or what?) and then I headed off to bed.
I cant wait for every day to begin now. I cant wait to have them home, and to take them back to Newcastle and start our life together.
Suddenly I am seeing it all...I'm seeing us walk along the beach together, I'm seeing him stare in awe at the lights on the Christmas tree, I'm seeing him grow, go to school, I'm seeing him as an adult, standing next to me in the bookies telling me number 3 in the 3.30 at Newmarket hasnt got a hope, the horse runs backwards...I'm seeing all that.
I'm not daft. I know that to get the good stuff I'm gonna have to do the not so good stuff - dirty nappies, no sleep, money worries, all the stuff that aint so nice that's attached to parenting, but I figure...it has to be worth it, doesnt it? I mean...I have known my son for two days so far, thats all, and I know I would lay my life down for him. Once you know that, is there anything you wouldnt do? I think not.
Okay so it's 9.15 in the morning and I'm headed back to the hospital soon, so I'll say bye for now. Cheb passes on her love to all of you, and will write a blog soon and/or reply to emails and comments and such. I will pass on all of your love to her and our boy too.
Have a great day guys
Much love
Dave x
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What a great life you'll all have! glad to hear Stan is a strong little boy! well done Cheb you done good!!! and blimey what a great mother in law too, my mother in law is good and believe me when little stan gets bigger you'll find out how great grannies are!! good luck to you all x x
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Posted by pixiepatch
on 2008-05-23 07:37:06
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Thanks for the update, David. What a magical and special time for you and Cheb. I was especially touched when you said you were a sensitive soul and would be there to help Cheb deal with all the adjustments a woman goes through after giving birth. The love you and Cheb share inspires me. Sending along lots of hugs and good wishes. Peace.
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Posted by ColoradoDreamin
on 2008-05-23 21:15:59
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Hey david...i've been away from thoughts during the weekend, so im sorry for not seeing this earlier!
Tell cheb to rest and not bother about comments and emails right now!!
You'll be proud parents of a wonderful son...and all the sleepless nights will be totally worth it :)
(yes, this comes from a 19 year old who has no experience with babies, but i'm just telling you what i feel!)
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-05-26 01:34:31
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pixiepatch - yep, I have a great mum in law, I'm very lucky! And yep...we have many built in baby sitters in mind, haha! x
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Posted by geordiedreamer
on 2008-05-26 17:34:32
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ColoradoDreamin - it is a magical time, thats the perfect word to describe it! And I do often feel (and Cheb feels it too) that there is a strong connection between us. Even when we have been 160 miles apart I have known when something was troubling her, even when she told me she was fine. So hopefully I will be able to tell when she needs me and be there in any way I can be. We do have an amazing love. Thanks for your well-wishes x David x
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Posted by geordiedreamer
on 2008-05-26 17:37:38
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angelwings - hiya. Yeah, I have told her not to worry about emails and blogging etc but she says it helps her and she's stubborn too - hey, so long as shes happy! Lol x All the sleepless nights will be totally worth it, for such a beautiful son x lots of love x David x
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Posted by geordiedreamer
on 2008-05-26 17:39:33
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