i am soo tired of being beat up and i feel like im being bullied by life but its not going to happen ne more..my girls sit and watch me trip and fall and stumble and so many times they have been there for me and i have to do this for myself.

if u stand up to a bullie they may laugh at you and still bullie you but eventually they get bored so till life moves on to bullie another it wont bother me ne more...

im going to go back to school and get my batch degree and as i know that this can work...im in a place where i don't realy want to be but the school here is awesome and the job i have is great it is just the area but as long as i am here there isn't much to distract me so that is cool...

i may not try to quit smoking in  the near future but to control it much more and get to where i control it not it controlling me...i am not going to use i hope i pray (which i do just not in this way) i want ill try...no none of that..i am going to do this i have to set in my mind that this is going to happen...

the school thing yes is going to be hard and i know that...but i have to and will do this for my future and my girl's future...i went to school for them in the first place and they r the reason i didnt quit very good reason i might add..but i want to do this for me..because they need me and i need them and im have tried so many times...they have seen me fall and trip and stumble and i have never let them down yet and they believe in me...


yay pep talk...whoot!!!!!!