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I remember

I remember it well the first time i saw you, from that moment on i knew that i loved you. I knew in that moment that i was totaly and complety yours. I saw your eyes and i was lost in the wonder that they held. I saw your lips and wanted to touch them, to kiss them, to taste them. I saw your hands and wanted to be held, to be touched by them, i remember it all.

Turns out you became my joy and my pain. I love you to much sometimes to bear, sometimes i dont love you, when i remember the words that where said, the pain that was caused, the humiltiation at your words when i begged and pleaded for you to stay.

Its nothing new what happend to us, its like rain. It happens to us all at one time or another. We all are hurt we all suffer, its the univerasal truth. Pain. Its is constent and its unberable but it has to be to remind us of the joy and the happiens that we once shared. Dont look back at our past with bittrness at my failings rather look back at them and remember the happy moments that we shared, those special times when you made me smile, when i made you laugh, i guess you can say at the wonder that is being in love. Remember those times.

I find that i really havent changed, i run into people i knew, and i see how much we are all the same. No one ever changes we just get older, i have learned to love you taught me that. You taught me what it ment to care so much for someone, to not be greedy and selfish you came that gift.

Perhaps someday our fortunes will change and i ll see you come walking back home. I ll see you and i ll smile i ll laugh and i ll cry at the gift that has come home again. My house is empty with out you. I tried to close all the windows and doors to keep a part of you here but you have taken it all away.

Someday perhaps our fortunes will change, and if it does tell me your jokes again, sing me your songs and hold me in your arms and lull me to bed, to you remeber those days. Asleep in your room talking and dreaming of things that never where?

I remember those days. You are my pleasure and you are my pain.

take care my love.

Love always, chango.