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a missed oppurtunity
i just read an article about what i means to be a father. and i realised that i missed out to have a child with someone that i love. when we first got married. she asked me to have a child with her. i wasnt ready yet to have a baby. i was still in school working part time making minum......Read More

Posted on: 2007-08-02 11:32:04 | Rating:

| Views: 149 | Comments: 1 | Tags: children love marriage family divorce

Another day, a little more sorrow....
I had another bad morning today, woke up feeling lousy. Woke up at 400am, when i went out the sun was starting to peek out, i thought of you. i wondered where you where? where you alone? was someone holding you? are you happy now? i think it all started on saturday, when i tried to......Read More

Posted on: 2007-08-07 08:56:54 | Rating:

| Views: 150 | Comments: 3 | Tags: divorce alone

life or something like it
so what happens now? i have been asking this question to myself the last couple of days. and i dont know how to answer it. for one thing, i am not sure that i am ready to move on and accept the decisions that have been made. i know that i dont have a choice but i believe that they......Read More

Posted on: 2007-08-16 07:00:32 | Rating:

| Views: 159 | Comments: 1 | Tags: divorce life alone regret

so what do i do?
so its happend at last my worst nightmare. she has met someone new. i knew this would happen ;this day would occure sometime, i just did nt know it would be so soon, and so hard to take. i cant stop shaking. its like i have the chills. i cant stop tremebling. your words keep playing over......Read More

Posted on: 2007-08-27 14:03:37 | Rating:

| Views: 573 | Comments: 1 | Tags: love broken heart divorce

like a fool in the rain
hope its the one thing that we all hold true. each and everyone had hope. but what good does it do to us to have hope? what do we gain by it? looking back on my life now i see that hope has always been a part of who i am in my life. i have always held hope for the best......Read More

Posted on: 2007-08-28 07:07:24 | Rating:

| Views: 97 | Comments: 1 | Tags: lost love

you never loved me
i can see now that you never really did love me as much as you say you did. i can say this becasue look how walked away from me. you have someone new in your life and it hurts but i am trying to accepte it. life is never really fair is it? we win big but when we loose we loose it......Read More

Posted on: 2007-08-29 12:00:46 | Rating:

| Views: 123 | Comments: 1 | Tags: lost love divorce

who i am
I think that slowly i am starting to learn who i am. It has been hard since my wife left me. But i regonize that i made many mistakes, that alot of actions that i could have taken but failed too where my own fault. I have blamed people around me for alot of things. They did have a......Read More