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the misery of silence
last night was a really long night, didnt get much sleep, strange dreams, bad thoughts. i felt even more alone last night. the idea that you are truly no longer my wife is even more present now then before. a plain paper said it all, as of now you are divorced. i dont know how you are......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-01 07:44:30 | Rating:

| Views: 142 | Comments: 1 | Tags: divorce love lost love

twlight
your right, i cant make up for the mistakes that i have done, i cant take back what i said or make up for what i failed to do. this feels wrong, not just because it hurts but because we are making a mistake. i am miserable, i am in pain, i am alone. i am sitting here crying at work, i......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-01 11:05:58 | Rating:

| Views: 125 | Comments: 0 | Tags: divorce love broken heart

prarie wind
you know the only friends i have left are the wind and my memories, in my memories i can relive the past, the good and the bad. the moments when i was truly happy and madly in love, when i held you, kissed and carssed you, where you tell me you love and that you are mine forever. when i......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-02 10:55:56 | Rating:

| Views: 124 | Comments: 0 | Tags: divorce lost love broken heart

is my love wasted
tell me is my love wasted on someone who doesnt love me anymore? or rather they do but they have so much resenment towards me, they are carrying so much hurt against me inside of them that they are blinded by it and refuse at accept that love still exsists? or am i fooling my self.......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-05 08:47:41 | Rating:

| Views: 146 | Comments: 1 | Tags: divorce lost love broken heart

shadows
have you ever stood at a window in the dark, with no lights on looking out? when you look out you see the world for what it is. with out our shadows casting over and reflecting back to us the world through our shadows. its a cleaner and more simplistic view on life. when we......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-05 14:03:36 | Rating:

| Views: 86 | Comments: 0 | Tags: divocre lost love

patience
its been a few days since i have written work, family, school, stress have taken a toll. so not much time. work has gotten as busy as before but i lack an assitant to help me out, school i am sick of it again i need a break the instructor is as dull as watching the grass grow. family......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-07 08:19:45 | Rating:

| Views: 108 | Comments: 0 | Tags: family stress divorce

someday
its days like today when i have wonder was this really all worth it? i mean you and i went through some tough times but we never really gave up on each other. in one way or another we were there to help us get through some tough times. i sit here and wonder what was it all for then?......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-08 08:41:15 | Rating:

| Views: 96 | Comments: 1 | Tags: life love divorce

what the hell?!?!?!?
you know today my post wont be about my wife, it is and it is'nt. it is in the sense that i wanted to have dinner with her today, but i dont want to get in the way of her and her boyfriend, wait i should say ex-wife. okay. but anyhow i had asked her for supper tonight. but the assholes......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-09 08:48:03 | Rating:

| Views: 113 | Comments: 2 | Tags: work

whispers
i thought i heard you whisper my name this morning. i thought i heard your voice in my room at night, i thought i felt your breath on my face this morning. i dreamnt that you were with me last night, you shared my bed with me last night. not for passion or desire, but for tenderness and......Read More

Posted on: 2007-11-09 13:24:59 | Rating:

| Views: 113 | Comments: 1 | Tags: divorce love

all hope is lost
its 1230, and i wonder where you are. its been a long day, crappy day at work, but i made up for it by stopping by the old work to vist some friends, a little debate little politics. but really to see you. stupid as it is i really wanted to see you again. i am sorry for it......Read More