So i heard this song the other day, i dont really know how it ended up on my mp3 player, "good bye my lover" by james blunt. WOW is all i can say, that song floored me the... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-01 09:00:29
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 Somedays, i dont know why i do the things that i do. i made a big mistake on my last posting and really hurt her feelings. I am sorry for it. I am angry for one thing. at my self and at... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-03 13:22:55
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 I remember it well the first time i saw you, from that moment on i knew that i loved you. I knew in that moment that i was totaly and complety yours. I saw your eyes and i was lost in the... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-10 14:57:12
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 Its fall here in canada, its a beautiful fall day out, from my office window i can see how the leaves have been changing colour, how the days take on that beautiful golden sheen to... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-11 09:40:22
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 So i am currently trying to figure out where i am in my life so far. And too big things come to mind. the fact that i am 29 and what the hell does that mean? and the fact that i am a... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-15 14:00:37
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  So I have been thinking the last couple of days about the website and wondering why it is that I choose to write. Why do I choose to publish so many private and personal things? For one... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-16 08:49:00
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 What do i want to say today? I am not really sure i just thought i would add to the all ready crowded world of the internet. Can you imagine if the first guys to think of creating the... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-17 08:59:23
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  i dont know why today i miss you as much as i do. i know that i shouldnt really anymore, enough time has passed for us to heal, but still the love for you that i have cant seem to... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-17 18:39:54
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 how does one turn off thier heart and forget everything around them, how do you stop from loving someone when they are everything to you?  how do you stop the hurting, how can... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-18 06:42:48
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 I know i shouldnt call but i cant help myself at sometimes. I forget that i am not need and not wanted anymore, just tell me one more time tell me that you no longer need me. its hard... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-18 09:35:12
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   you were here i was here, we were friends, we lovers, we were one, but now you are thier and i am here,  but i dont know where here is anymore. . when i look back on... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-18 13:15:31
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   Memories. they are the foundation to a persons core self. We all at sometime or another have experinced things that are similiar in nature, we all have at one time or another felt... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-19 11:25:29
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 this has been a long weekend, i spent most of it trying not to pickup the phone and calling you. trust me it has not been an easy thing to do. most of the time i thought to my self... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-22 07:13:48
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 somedays you just really dont want to get out of bed at times, today was one of those days. I had a chat with my boss about my performance at work as of late. and i have to give her credit... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-22 13:20:02
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 not matter how hard you run and how fast  you go you can never seem to reach the horizon. it just seems to hang there and move further and further away from you. you can see it and... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-23 07:39:59
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most of us are sad we are just to afriad to admitt it, admitting it would cause our world to be a little darker a little colder that what it already is. most of us are lonley, much afriad to be... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-23 14:39:56
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of course i wake up again last night at 3 am, what the hell is up with that?!?!? anyways as i am lying awake staring at the ceiling and trying to figure out why i cant go back to sleep. i... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-24 09:15:27
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  what is else is thier but you, someday i will wake up and the memory of you will vanish like the night. till that time i will keep loving you like i do and praying to no avial for... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-24 22:19:43
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 woke up feeling a little let down today. cant seem to understand why that is. if i had to describe it i would say that i am feeling blue today. back in the funk. i guess its you are always... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-25 07:14:53
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 in this new fangaled age of technoogy, i swear people are getting dumber and dumber, no one reads anymore, instructions bah! signs on the wall bah! unless it comes down a balckberry or... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-25 14:01:50
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   it was good seeing you today, you looked more beautiful then ever. your right i dont want to look at your eyes i am scared of not seeing the love that they once held for me.... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-26 23:10:36
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   sometimes when you look at me, i see the love that we once shared in your eyes again. and it makes me nervous. it reminds me of what we once where we were happy once, we were... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-28 17:47:45
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  so here i am again, trying to sleep but replaying moments in my life again. i am sitting in bed with my laptop on my chest. trying to sleep but as is the case now unable too. you are... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-28 22:11:04
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 that i cant seem to get you off my mind, this morning i realize just how much i miss you. how much i need you back. sitting in my office i was blindside by a vision of you, that picture... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-29 06:33:25
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 do you ever wonder what could be? or are you too busy with life to think about it? house warming parties, friends, finding new love. in those quiet moments that we sometimes have in our... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-29 11:02:34
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   if only it was so easy to forget the memory of you, like wiping the dust from a table. like forgetting a phone number or a name, if only it was easy is as that. but how can i forget... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-29 13:40:58
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 so the papers finally arrived. i am now officially divorced. as off 22nd of october. just too much to say right now. cant seem to shape it all into words that will make sense. excpet to... Read More
Posted by: gatopanzo on 2007-10-31 13:50:43
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