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So i am currently trying to figure out where i am in my life so far. And too big things come to mind. the fact that i am 29 and what the hell does that mean? and the fact that i am a divorced 29 year old male with no prospects.
This past weekend i tried not to call my ex, i figured that she would be busy with her activites this weekend. whatever they might be, church, family,friends, new guy. Which by the way i was right about it being who i thought it was. Cant really see them together though, she is way way way too much woman for him. But anyhow. i tried not to call her or think about her this weekend it was hard. I just missed checking in to see how she was, i know that it bugs her a bit for me to call but i like doing it just to keep in touch i guess. She needs her space, to find out her own life, i miss her though. Its like i ve said before moving on is so damm hard to do when you love someone. I know that somewhere inside of her she still does love me. It cant be all gone just like that.
I would have wanted to take her to a concert this weekend, it wasnt that bad not quiet what i expcected but it was good none the less. The music lessons are going well. I can play the guitar somewhat not jimm hendrix or robert plant good yet but i am coming along. This was all inspired by her. I mean even the blogs i keep now have been inspired by her, its brought out a part of me that i knew was thier all along but i didnt know how to define it.
the only thing really wrong apart from missing her and still being head over heels, in love with her is that i have this gawd awfull cold that i cant shake....i ve been sick for well over 3 weeks now and its sucks something fierce. My throat feels like someone took a grader and rubbed the inside of my throat with it. it hurts and it feels raw. Yuck!!!
She mentioned that i should go see her naturo path, i am thinking i should although belive i dont think they are real doctors just semi-quacks but anything to get over this cold.
Cant say that i am in a good mood, just this side of sad, anhow i need to get back to work. Babe, gorda, my little spanish flea, i miss you lots, i love you still, i still have the reservations to the resturant for your bday. I wish you would call me. but anyhow take care and hope to hear from you soon. love always chango.
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Posted by gatopanzo on 2007-10-15 14:00:37 | Rating: | Views: 96
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:( I'm sorry you're sad. I know nothing anyone can say can make the hurt go away. I hope that you find the peace you need.
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Posted by Whitters
on 2007-10-15 14:19:24
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no i am not sad persay, just miss her and i am still in love with her. can you belive that its been like almost 3 months since we i signed the papers, but i still miss her and i still love her still, no i am not sad just melencholy? a little blue. but i am okay.
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Posted by gatopanzo
on 2007-10-15 14:38:32
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