This is my first attempt at a blog, and it's not for the usual purposes of keeping friends and family updated... in fact, I would prefer it if they never saw this.  Yes, that probably *does* mean I should put it on private, but I also hope that some people may read this and it may even help them.  I'm starting this because I self-harm, and I no longer have anyone I can talk to about it.  I did have someone, but something she said brought it home to me that, because of what I do, and the choices I make, my friendships are adversely affected.  It feels as though they don't trust me; as though everything I say is examined to see if I'm hiding something...  And I can't put up with it any more.  So I choose to not talk to any of my friends about it anymore (not that I talked to many of them about it in the first place);  maybe that way I can get back to having normal conversations with people.  So here is my place to talk about it whenever and however I want, without feeling that I'm worrying people, or being judged.  If what I say can help someone, then that's great.  I may not keep this going for long; I may get bored, but - for now - that's how it is.