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It all started when I fell in love with someone whom I thought I could have a chance to be with. We are so happy with each other's companionship, we laughed our hearts out, we giggled like childres, we walked alongside the street holding one's hand and we kissed like we'll never let go. He used to call me every hour of everyday and I used to call him every precious moment of that time. I love him and he loves me too.
I'm not searching for the perfect one until I found the right one in a very wrong time. We tried to see each other as if no one's looking, we tried to listen as i no one's hearing and we tried to speak as if no one's talking. I already know right from the very beginning that being with him and being the only one he loves can't be possible. He already found who could have him for long, it's hard to accept the fact that the right one that I found was already saw his life with the right one he have found. I cried and cried and I end up letting go.
Letting go is always the saddest part of loving. I once believed that when you found the one who makes you feel complete; don't let him go because you have to search the whole world again just to find him. I let go not because I don't love him, I let him go simply because I love him so much and I want him to enjoy every little thing in his life and I think that setting him free will make him the best of himself.
He made me complete, he loved me as much as he could and he gave me something that can never be replaced by anyone else. Seeing him happy with his right one will definitely break me but I'm not afraid to feel that again because I know after being broken, I still can fix these torn pieces of mine. It all started when I fell in love with someone I know I can never have. I'm glad to love and to be loved-it's one of the greatest moments in my entire life that I will always treasure.
I gave him lots of letters made from scrap materials, paper cranes with simple messages, I painted him in my heart and I guess that masterpiece will no longer be erased because it's real and made from love and understanding. I am one of a kind artist, I can do whatever possible things I can imagine, I say what I feel in a language which people don't understand but I'm not crazy, my reality is just different than yours. I'm happy being me, being the way I am because I love how our Creator put me in this system. I have drawn him inside of my inner most; colored it with all the shades of love and fastened it with different textures of life. He made me an artist from inside and out but there's just one art I can't even try to pursue doing-the art of letting go.
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Posted by fullGROWN on 2008-07-26 11:03:15 | Rating: | Views: 35
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cry if you need,but dont make the pain torture you too long,he is the right one for you? maybe not...wish you happy soon,dont ever lose hope...
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Posted by nina880224
on 2008-07-26 11:08:17
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hey hey hey! i have been through this so many times, sometimes it takes so long to find the right guy, listen, you are young, you have a lot to experience, i am only 19 and i was going to get married last year! i didnt do it because i wanted to wait. I am happily in love with one of the greatest guys, thats what i think of him now, but nobody knows what the future holds for me. it happens to everybody!, dont worry, dont think about it too much.
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Posted by chulintruqui
on 2008-07-28 03:02:36
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