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I feel like I'm letting apart of myself go, my other half, the pulse that keeps me alive. You are everything I've never had and everything I've ever wanted, and yet I can't have you. Already I miss the sweetness of your lips, and the tenderness of your touch. I'm completely overcome by this emptiness. You not being here next to me is killing me softly, slowly, and as I descend into a deep depression I wonder...will I ever recover??? Wrapped in your essence, that's where I want to be, deprived of your love, it's getting hard to breathe. Your body is my nourishment, my air, my everything, and yet I'm left alone. By loving you I've hurt myself, but by leaving you I still feel like I'm hurting myself...what the hell am I supposed to do??? I need to break free, I need to love me. Leaving you is probably best, putting my strength and sanity to test, how will I ever survive? Wanting you here but needing you gone, where the hell did it all go wrong...damn, I'm so confused...