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ok well, i have this problem.
you see, just like everyone else, iv had a pretty hard life, and just like most others it has effected me. im not useing this as an excuse im just saying, it has.
the way i delt with this, iv allways had someone to vent and talk to. iv allways had someone there for me. there was allways those who brought the bad things yes, but there was allways those who i could come to and talk about it and get it off my chest. but now a days, i dont really have that....and i never knew how much that ment to me untill now. i look back and i realise the reason i allways stayed so straight and kept things together was because of them, because i could vent to them...they were my vices.
now i dont have them, my mom is gone all the time at work or shes at home asleep and her idea of family time is me sitting at home on the couch while she watches a movie. and my older brother who used to be there for me, allways so strong and couragouse, now he just yells at me or stays locked up in his room. and my other brother chris who i can allways come to is in another state along with my other lil bro...
i feel like i have nothing anymore. i had a freind but my mother and my brother told him they didnt want him around, so now i realy have nothing...well nothing but my new vices....
you see thats why i said earlier, i look back and realise how much they were to me, those who i could talk to, because without them i fall...and i have fallen, im soo far down that i cant even see it unless someone points it out to me...
the only thing that makes me happy now are those little costly things...
and i dont know how to stop it...
no, i take that back, i do know how to, i just dont want to.
i feel like if i give that up then i have nothing, and i feel like i cant go on...
i dont know what to do.
but i have decided to quit, im stopping. and im going to change, im going to make something of myself and im going to do it all on my own...please, keep me in your prayers if you read this.
i feel im going to need all the help i could get
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Posted by friselpill on 2008-07-23 22:56:28 | Rating: | Views: 42
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yes keep telling yourself you dont need drugs to be happy or to have fun! it may be fun at the moment but in the long run it just messes up everything. you could turn into a liar and a cheater and start doing anything for money to get high!! you dont want to live like that. you could end up in the hospital or jail or even worse.. DEAD
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Posted by Famous651
on 2008-07-31 16:09:28
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