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Reflections after a home visit

It was like a dream it was so short. That week of happiness, love and sunshine a winning combination. Every part of me was warm, from the tips of my toes to my soul. That week was like a conclusion to a lesson, a bit of hope and a gentle reminder of who I am and what makes me tick. Now its my job to oil these rusty cogs and get going.

I am feeling a little sad I’ve had to say goodbye to my friends again and it’s never certain when I’m going to see them again. But they all gave me a bit of shake this time round, reminding me what it is I love and that I mustn’t forget to hold on to those things. I now have to try again carry on ‘knocking on doors’ trying to meet more people here. I can’t just close down and shut people out because it hurts to say goodbye, it has been a lonely year and I have used work as an excuse. NO MORE! Before I left I really felt that people in this country were cold and unfriendly and there was no point in trying. But I think that attitude made things so. It was what I expected and felt so it was reflected back at me. Having just left an environment where I was surrounded by my friends and constantly meeting new people gave me confidence and that was reflected immediately, I met and chatted to people on the plane, it wasn’t stiff or stilted and I got a genuine response. I only regret not getting contact details. But I will overcome that shyness. Also people in general on the train home and in coffee shops smiled at me and started conversation. Its amazing how your environment effects you. I only hope I can keep up this happiness. It’s a constant work in progress. I refuse point blank to go back to being sad and closed. There is a lot on offer where ever I go and it’s up to me to make the most of it.

Posted by freyanna on 2008-03-17 06:30:25 | Rating: