i say that all this time

that was the last time i will ever drink

on my last birthday....they got me so fucking drunk and then I ended at some bar like a half hour from home not even realizing i left the first one....and i couldnt even look at alcohol let alone drink it for three months.  I was sick for a week..im sure it was alcohol poisoning...and it was the night before my actual birthday so my ACTUAL birthday where we all went out to the bar and karaoke and casino i was absolutely FUCKING MISERABLE...my poor boyfriend and his family came out with my family and in the middle of an amazing dinner i had to get up cause i thought i was gong to throw up


so i decided never again will i ever wake up wtih a hangover because i will never let myself get to that point.

i honestly just dont know what i was thinking.

after bowling andd having like three beers they decide LETS GO TO THE BAR after all the underage kids go home ===from a work party
so we went there
6 beers and two shots later my face is in the dirt. not literally
but all i know is my alarm was set for 730
and it is now 950
and i have to be at work in a half hour.

and my head is pounding and i think im going to probably end up throwing up here on my laptop


so why am i so stupid?
i know whaT its going to do to me in the morning...so why do i let myself do it?

ack.


time for work.