so i finally told him

i told him that its not that i dont trust HIM

i dont trust GIRLS

he asked me last night if i would mind if he was his friends dd for her birthday may 8th and i said no problem..there is no history with them and id by hypocritical if i said no because shes to him like my bff mike is to me...just friends...

but then about 10 minutes later he tells me he is probably going to a mets game on tuesday.
and you know what happened...i started shaking

thats when i knew i had to say something
i knew he was going to say with brittany his EX and people from TOys R Us

so i told him
i called him and told him how i felt

and well...at least he didnt say i was being a paranoid freak like my other boyfriends did...so i know hes not hiding anything..
he was very reassuring
and i said to him
im not going to tell you you cant go cause thats fucked up
but just know im not happy about it

i dont trust girls
they are manipulative and sneaky
especially ex girlfriends who see that their exs are happy in another relationship.
the chase and kill is fun to them
and i hate it
ive lost two boyfriends to their exs
and this is not giong to break my heart again


so i told him
i trust him
but i dont trust her

am i wrong?
or was that alright ?

i dunno
all i know is i stopped shaking when i said it

i think that if i didnt the stress from the week of working and finals at school would have unloaded on me and i wouldnt have made it.

blah
time for my day

thanks for reading