It is day one in what the school calls “ISS” or In School Suspension. In ISS as we will call it, you are put in a little room very similar to a closet (well, actually, it is a closet.) Now, some of you maybe asking, “why are you in ISS?”. I will tell you why in a moment. First, I want to describe the setting for you. To my right, are a bunch of snow flakes for homecoming (which depresses me further because I cannot go to homecoming). On my left is a copier and a series of shelves full of random school, forgive me, crap. Behind me, is a desk of sorts but is unusable because one must turn around to use it and there is not enough room to turn around. Lastly, in front of me is all of the welcome office or front office staff.

   To the question of “why are you in ISS?”, I am in ISS for sexual immorality as they call it. However, I have never had sex. Now, you must be asking “you never had sex, so why are you in there for sexual immorality?”. To that, I am in here under the premises of pre-requisite stages to sex. In short they believe that me and my girlfriend were going to have sex. Thus, they, as a private Christian school are punishing me and my girlfriend for pre-requisite stages to sex. You all now either are agreeing with the school or are wondering what the school is smoking.

   Mr. Someone (for sake of not being in more trouble than I am at the present time), the principal of the school, has taken a number steps to punish us. Some of his punishments are illegal too. Here is a list of punishments that Mr. Someone has instituted:

   In school, me and my girlfriend are forcefully kept from talking. If we should talk, we will be expelled.
We are forced to see a counsellor once a week indefinitely. If we should not, expulsion.
My girlfriend was forced to have a pregnancy test. If she had not, expulsion.
Lastly, ISS for both of us.

   In the third punishment, it is stated that my girlfriend was forced to take a pregnancy test. This is illegal. No school authority is given the power to threaten a girl or her family to take a pregnancy test. This crime is punishable by a five to ten year sentence in prison and a $250,000 to $1,000,000 fine. However, this is only what I have been told. As I look into this more I will update the blog.

   Now that you know the circumstances I am going to begin the body of my blog which is a day-by-day journal through this “chaos”.

   Today is monday, the third day of ISS. I have two days left to go and it is already difficult. Now it is 8:47 am. School started at 8:00 am. As I walked through the hallways I felt as though every teacher looked at me with a disgusted and suspect look. As though they were looking down at me and were stopping themselves from stomping on me like a little bug. There is no doubt, I and my girlfriend have lost a considerable amount of trust and respect with our parents and the school. But, however, we must have room to breathe and regain what we have lost. This is all bad and depressing, but, the worst punishment of all is that of not being allowed to socialize with my girlfriend on any level.

   As I walk in the hallway and see her my heart feels like it is being pulled from its socket. An ache that cannot be shaken or quenched short of coldness and bitterness or the touch of the one I love. Granted, this all must sound very similar to a dreary romance novel. However, that is not my goal. My goal is to express my feelings in hopes of finding peace within this matter through a blog. Now, as you all know, seeing the one you love, being an inch away from her, and not being able to touch her or hold her hand is a terrible feeling. Similar to that of being drowned only an inch away from the surface. Being able to see the light, to see the air, to see life but being unable to grasp it. Not being able to express one’s love for another further than a look of sadness, pain and disparity. Not being able to comfort and be comforted; but, rather, be left alone to the torment of one’s own mind and anxieties. Not being able to be relieved of one’s anxieties, but, instead, being allowed only to compound them within one’s self.

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