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ok so i'm a little addicted to the horoscope thing...it's happened before...lol so sue me! :oP i just happen to find it interesting when they're accurate; especially on a consistent basis....
During this time of year, Pisces, while the Sun is in Scorpio, you are usually focused on broadening your horizons in some way: travel or educational plans are the most common methods. This next few weeks will have an undercurrent of this, but today you have to deal with a situation involving a friend and a power struggle. It is probably their issue, not yours, but something similar enough to your experience that you can add the voice of experience to help settle their confusion. You may receive a message that really stands out today.
the sun would be in Scorpio.... gol go figure. interestingly enough, i was supposed to chill with Cross today but @ the last minute he said he couldn't do it....
Cross --> "I can't do it! Sorry. I'm dealin with some sh*t right now. I gotta clear my head!"
disappointment.
we were supposed to go to the halloween store...it was cute to me cuz we did it last year & that was waaaaay back when we first started hanging out. figured we'd get some lunch & just chill..... ::sigh:: the more upsetting part is that today was probably my last chance to see him for the next 3 weeks. he's starting a crazy "crash cycle" @ work sunday & may have to work early 2morrow as well.
so whack.
"absence makes the heart grow fonder...." right? :o/
it's so unlike him to cancel plans.....and the "clear my head" thing......heard that one before. i'm assuming it is an issue with her.... normally if something is stressing him out, he'll call me to vent.... except of course if it has to do with her.
::shrugs::
i'm trying to decide now if i should just go on my own or wait for sunday... most of the time when he has to cancel or disappoints me in some way he always finds another to make up for it - which usually includes coming thru as soon as he has the chance....
last night (well really this morning...around 4:30 lol) i was invited back to the bat cave once again for breakfast... (i really shouldn't have been awake but i got caught up watching Dirty Dancing...hahahaha). of course as i was thinking about how i belong to him & planning to shut the movie off to go to sleep after the scene that was about to play, he texted me.
for a good 30 seconds i struggled with the decision to reply....afterally, had i done what i was supposed to in the first place, i would have been sleeping.....but as we all know, i'm a complete & utter sucker for him & indubitably responded.
he was surprised i was up....we exchanged the usual "what u up 2"'s & i confessed that i can't go 3 weeks without seeing him. he made a comment about planning trips to AC & then asked if i wanted cereal. again, i struggled for a split second, knowing i really shouldn't head there because i had to be up in less than 5 hours to hit the gym & yet, i got my a$$ out of bed, showered & headed over 2 his house.
thinking about it now, perhaps it was a premonition....
it took me a little longer to get done than i'd planned as i wanted to make sure i had my gym stuff in the car so i could leave straight from his place & so i texted him on my way over there to make sure......well really to make sure he was inviting me by asking if i wanted cereal & not just asking to be silly....but i also hadn't heard from him since i went in the shower & since it took me so long (half an hour), i was wondering if perhaps he'd fallen asleep...
no answer...
texted him again asking if he'd fallen asleep
still nothing.... ::uh oh...::
i got there, parked & sat for what seemed an eternity but was really just about 2 minutes, to see if he'd respond. my confidence dwindled but then i wondered if maybe he was just in the shower....
i slowly reached for the door handle as i gathered my composure & walked to the door....again, slowly reaching for the door knob.... i knocked & hesitated in turning it....when i didn't hear any movement, i tried the knob ever so slightly.... i waited a few moments to see if he'd come 2 answer my knock.....nothing. back to my car i went.
@ this point i wasn't sure what to do. of the 3 times i'd been there so far, the door was never locked. it was always open in anticipation of my arrival... he had to be sleeping...or in the shower.... right? is he messing with me?? wth??
i texted him one more time, assuming sleep was the culprit & calling him grandpa as is the usual inside joke between us...giving one last chance for a response....
2 my surprise:
Cross --> "i'm up"
Foxx --> "well r u going to open ur door??"
i gave it a minute or 2 before i headed back to the door.....because he hadn't replied (again) & the "i'm up" was uncharacteristic of what he'd normally say if he wasn't half asleep, i hesitated to turn the knob again.....
this time it turned but when i put my shoulder into the door slightly to push it open, it didn't move & i realized the dead bolt was still locked. this time i did an immediate about-face & went straight to my car, started it right up & went home.
i had a mixture of irritation & disappointment....slowed down my thinking & remembered that it had taken me 30 min to get ready & over there so it was really more my fault. the thought of calling crossed my mind but i didn't want to be obnoxious & i know he needed the rest anyway.
he must have woken up around 8 cuz i had 2 texts from him
Cross --> "omg"
& "where u at??"
i told him i'd gone home & he said "i'm sorry.. you shouldve called!! i was knocked out!!"
said it was all good cuz it was my fault for taking half an hour plus i knew he needed the sleep anyway....besides, it's not like i haven't done that to him before... lol (oops) ;)
after spin i told him i wanted to go to the halloween store & he said he had something to take care of but would be done in about an hour, which worked out perfectly cuz i still had to shower.... only of course i got caught up doing juice a favor.....
Cross--> "i'm here. where u at"
i was coming down toward the turn for my street & explained how i'd gotten caught up. he said all good & he'd be back since he wasn't done with what he had to do anyway. seemed perfect again cuz i still had to shower/get dressed.... but ::rewind:: cancelled plans. :o/
oh well. 4 whatever reason, it wasn't meant to be....
i just hate it when he's stressed  even moreso when i don't know why & therefore am helpless.
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going along with the title....i've been fiending for a clove the last couple of days....so strange...most especially since i've been bugging the smokers i know about quitting & have come across an exceptional number of them...both those who have quitting in the plans as well as those who don't.... the last thing i want to be is a hypocrite....i HATE that!! but it's soooo hard!!! ugh!!!!
dying for coffee all the time as well...
Cross, of course is also one of my addictions.... killin me right now...
as is staying up into the wee hrs....
food.... most particularly chocolate & salty things (like platano chips & pretzels) as of late...
i'm struggling with all of the cravings hitting at once..... ::smh::
Goddess help me.....it's not even a full moon yet!!
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Posted by foxx_flie on 2009-10-23 13:28:34 | Rating: | Views: 29
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