damper - might as well be one, it matches the weather today.

beast ---> 'r u cumin 2 class 2night?'

instead of texting back, i called (for 2 reasons - 1) i wanted to hear his voice  & 2) i figured it'd be easier to ask him what i wanted to ask that way).

turns out he's not teaching class tonight!!    that sux so bad!!  i was really looking forward to seeing him AND really really looking forward to class!!  

alas i can't complain tooooo much....he's taking his boys to the circus & that's good for all of them.  they need time together & they should do all the fun stuff they possibly can. 

::sigh::  besides, i suppose it works out better that way for me as well since i can get done earlier to go out with the girls, which will be nice.  so now i just have to decide if i'm going to workout downstairs before i leave the city or if i should go home first & workout at the gym near me.......  i think since i lugged all my crap out here already, i might as well put it to use & workout here....besides, once i get home, if i don't drop auntie off & hightail it to the gym without stepping foot inside, the chances of my going back out to workout are not good.  

that solves it then.  i'll workout downstairs. 

::brakes:: maybe not... on the call we had earlier he said he was gonna try to stop by my office to see me but then wound up not able to make it & suggested i come see him instead.... i don't kno what time he'll be at that particular gym for but i'd be willing to go see him even for only a few minutes...& then i suppose i could just workout there...... hmmm... we'll see.

anyway, i'm very excited about going out tonight & getting my hair straightened!  hahaha  i've only done that once before & it was trippy!  i didn't even recognize myself!!  hopefully it'll hold up in this weather...   if not, there's always the good old ponytail!  hahaha 

i saw cbb on lunch....i can't lie...i do like the way he hugs me.... and i am a bit attracted to him.  something holds me back tho.... today i was more attracted to him than usual... i think it had to do with the fact that it was obvious he's been hitting the gym everyday since i last saw him.... damn my shallow ways!!   i cant help the primal instict that resides deep inside me tho!!  why should i supress it???  sex is normal!  sex is natural!  sex is healthy!  sex is fun!!!!  no?  hahaha  i mean, as long as it's safe & consensual of course!!   i don't kno.... maybe i'm a nympho.... lmao 

must admit i did agree (in my head) when he said it'd definitely be amazing if he & i got together... he could probably pick me up & toss me around like a little doll... i f*cking love that.  have his way with me..... yum.  (can't believe i just said that!!!)  maybe i'm just really horny.  gol  it's been over a week since i've been with beast... in fact.....i'm not sure when the last time i was with him was..... i'll have to really think about it... or maybe just read back in my posts hahaaha. 

i can't believe i'm really actually considering cbb!!!   wtf?!?!!?  lmao  oh boy.....here we go....  this one is gonna be fun.  (maybe more fun than i've bargained for )

i crave the new....the fresh.....variety. 

tho i gambled with IB & lost cuz that sucked.   i thought about calling him a few times.... i had a saved voicemail from him & his voice turned me on faster than i could say 'boo'.....

awwww hahahahaha  PB&J is so adorable!!  i love his accent!!  he always stops by my desk to talk to me.  i kno he's feelin me from the night we all went out after work.  hahaha  que lindo.... it'd never work tho... he reminds me too much of Fulton.  haha   now THERE'S a laugh!!