all's well again. lmao  i decided to text him
Me --> 'i can't stop thinking about u'
Beast --> 'me 2! ;o)'
 
::sigh::

i don't kno what i'm going to do with myself.  he & i had a talk by accident last night about where our relationship is headed.  we started off talking about my attraction to girls.... which led to the question of whether there was anyone in my life right now that i was interested in (i.e. friends).  i told him all my friends have boyfriends & he said 'awwww and u don't have a boyfriend...' touched my chin & said 'i'll be ur boyfriend....ok?'   i laughed & didn't say anything for about 15 seconds then said 'are u foreal?'  and he played dumb for a min & was like 'foreal about what?'  and i said 'nothing' because my chicken a$$ shyed away from it.  gol  anyway we wound up back on that subject at some point when he said 'do you want me to be ur boyfriend?'  or something like that.... and i was like 'i don't kno...do u want to be?'  or it might have been something like 'do u want to be my girlfriend?' & i said 'i don't kno...do u want me to be ur girlfriend?'   either way

gotta cut it short.  time to leave - gotta hightail it outta here tonight so i can get to work @ nysc on time... it's snowing.  joy.