it's always sort of a roller coaster after a certain point.   or is it a see-saw?  both?  that would be a crazy amusement park ride!!  a rollercoaster with cars that see-saw the whole time???  hmmmm...... hahaha  i might have to look into that.....

when beast had texted me earlier, it was rather generic & i was disappointed because i wanted to kno that he missed me too.  (still wonder why i always need that despite the fact that i push the feeling away as often as it comes along if i can manage)  i kept my cool & what do u kno....he calls.  he sounded exhausted.  ---> it must be something about today - greg said he's really tired, beast said he is really tired, L said she's exhausted & z went to get starbucks for both of us cuz he's tired too!!  geez!  maybe it's planetary alignment or maybe it's just the gloomy overcast weather we had both yesterday & today.... we didn't speak for long but it was nice to hear his voice even if only for a minute or two.  he said he wanted to find something for all of us to do (me, him & his 2 boys ----> WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!!!!!!!!!  i'm about to meet his kids!!??!??   omg omg omg) and what he had in mind was medieval times.... i sucked in a breath & said 'omg i would love that!'  i felt him soften thru the phone & then he said 'i kno u would baby...i kno u would.............ok so that's what we'll do.  can u find out the dates & times, ticket prices etc & send them to me?'   at that we ended our conversation because we had the same goal to accomplish - eat lunch.

after i looked up the times & stuff i told him next saturday would probably be our best bet since i am going out for L's bday this saturday, to the car show on sunday with daddy & greg & out to yonkers for a belated easter dinner next sunday.  i also asked if he thought the boys might be interested in going to the car show this weekend & that i'd luv it if they came....

beast --> 'we might b going 2 the circus, i hav 2 get back 2 u.  and i need 2 c u asap!  my high is wearing off!  i need a fix'

::MELT!!!!::

me --> 'thats exciting!  :)  i love the circus haha such a big kid.  awww!  i need 2 c u 2!  funny u say it that way....i've described u as 'like a drug' before in my writings lol'  

then he decided on the 8pm show @ medieval times for next saturday. 

Me --> 'i'm so excited! :)'

beast --> 'ditto! : )'

and just like that, i'm all giggles & fuzzies again.  ::sigh::  see-saw roller coaster.