starting to wonder why i have a kind of obsession with love.
it's why i fall 'in love' so quickly....
OMG....and even now! wtf!?!? downloaded the song from class & i'm instantly thinking of Coliseum...
yeah, another new one. lmao well not so new.... i met him when i went to get certified in PT last year. just so happens he works at the same gym i do & so we've kept in touch.
when we first met i didn't think he was attractive at all...in fact his attitude really turned me off. but, as is typical foxx behavior, i engaged in playful teasing & flirting anyway.
since i started doing basketball at his gym, i've become increasingly attracted to him despite trying to stop myself from even entertaining the thought.
he's a bigger flirt than i am (if that's possible! hahaha) & that drives me insane bcuz i have t control the little green monster....but he's so effing cute....his body keeps getting better & i can't front....i want it.
he also has a beautiful smile & those classic puppy-dog spanish boy eyes..... AAAAHHHHH!!!!! what's wrong with me!?!?!?
if i could create the perfect man for me he'd have cross' personality, intelligence, sexual ability, taste, eyes, height & hair, platano's affection, voice & dancing skill & coliseum's complexion/face & body build on cross' frame.....smile would be a combo of cross & coliseum.... oh & throw in beast's athleticism & spirituality.
::lost in a daydream::
lol i'm a mess.
anyway, ever since i started doing the stats for the league there i have seen him more & he always made a point to hug me hello (& sometimes goodbye) & wouldn't u know it....he joined the league with his own team this session....so now i see him every week....
i went to one of his boxing demo's & since then i've been trying to get time with him to train but he's always either with a client or teaching a class. the last time we tried to work something out he mentioned that he teaches a bootcamp class & told me i should check it out....so i did. now i'm addicted - to the class of course. ;) however, seeing him every week (sometimes more than once) is certainly not helping me quelch my kittenish fascination.
alas we all know where this is headed if we know foxx at all.....
i'll take it just far enough so i kno i've got him & then toss him aside into my victory pile....
why do i have this urge to 'conquer?' lol
something to do while i wait on the one i can't yet have?
a more deeply rooted issue that has to do with control?
stemming from my mother?
am i just simply never satisfied; hell bent on finding my 'prince charming?'
the saga continues....
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