where did it go????   i don't get it!!  everything was perfect....P-E-R-F-E-C-T.....well close enough anyway... ::sigh::  what the hell is wrong with me!?!?!  ... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-03 13:25:00
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so friday night after a nice training session, beast was hard at work on the project he'd told me about the last time we chilled.  i couldn't help but laugh to myself in the locker room........ Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-03 19:00:30
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so many details....i don't have time right now which is frustrating as my spirit pulls me into contemplation.  i urge to delve into the 're-memories'  to analyze & ponder them. ... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-05 11:33:01
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another one similar to Niko approached this morning.  i fell by the construction site i walk past every friggin day.  got a free coffee out of it tho.  lmao for the second time... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-06 11:52:03
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OMG!!!!!   got on the bus this morning & looked up after i sat down at the guy getting on....i recognized his face but i wasnt 100% sure where i knew him from... he looked up &... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-07 13:07:23
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first i'll start with the dreams..... yesterday morning beast tried to wake me but i was wrapped up in a dream & determined to finish it.  (that has never been something i've been able... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-10 12:29:44
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beast called this morning.  the boy is hooked. lmao  not that i take him for granted or i'm so conceited as to think i'm not but still... i find it amusing because he resisted so... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-11 13:28:29
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i was out on lunch & listening to my 'theme song'.....it hit me.  it makes so much sense now!  ESPECIALLY the line that beast pointed out!!  crazy.... i wonder if he saw the... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-11 14:54:56
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i 'asked' for coffee this morning & boom, tony snuck up on me while i was on my way from port & bought one for me.  word.  goddess is good  ;o) i had plans to... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-12 09:49:53
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the urge to literally run & hide keeps surfacing lately & i can't pinpoint why.  like a heightened level of self consciousness.... the funny part about it is that when beast's... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-12 16:01:08
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one of the banana chips in my trail mix just gave me a flashback of the lunchroom in kindergarten.  lmao!  that was interesting.  wanna kno something else interesting? ... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-13 11:03:23
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sometimes fridays suck more collectively than the entire week put together.  today is one of those fridays.  and figures, it's also my birthday.  yay.  i am staying... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-14 13:41:55
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every time i have an amazing morning with beast, the rest of the day gets all screwy.   grrrrr  not too bad i guess...just not as mellow as i'd like it to be.  weekend was... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-17 13:01:23
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beast came to visit me at work!!  it was crazy....i called him cuz i was thinking about him & a couple of min into the convo   beast --> 'u work in gc... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-17 18:04:30
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the market is up....for now..... scary stuff lately.  as usual, i thought of beast....wrestled with the decision of 'to text/call or not to text/call'....no sooner do i pick up my phone... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-18 14:25:13
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january 15th is the first time i mentioned beast in writing - i'll have to tell him...he was curious & neither of us can seem to remember when exactly we had sex for the first time. ... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-19 13:25:37
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uncle took a piece of my heart with him when he died & with each passing day, i realize more the reality that i'll never get it back.  it hit me kind of hard this morning in particular... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-20 12:27:10
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having people in your life from your past is more important than i thought it was.  yesterday was interesting.  far from the 'traditional' easter....  i remember the first... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-24 13:06:44
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beast responded to my text yesterday morning.  in response to '3 weeks?'  he explained what i already knew about his kids.  i'm not sure if he held out to see if he could get further... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-25 12:07:46
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real quick before lunch.... the re-introduction of wii in my life has made a profound difference.  i am going to experiment with that. still can't stop thinking about beast.... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-25 13:49:01
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i hate it when i can't finish an entry.... i'm struggling to remember the details of the weekend & i had really wanted to get everything down...... ok.  so i left off with friday....... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-25 16:47:53
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that 15 min went really friggin quick!  saw boomba on the bus again this morning.... he gave me an arrogant 'what's up' w/ a smirky kind of thing.... i've seen that before. ... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-26 10:27:29
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there is one particular leaf in the 'mixed greens' salad that i favor over the rest.....i don't kno what it's called but it tastes divine & puts me smack in the middle of a mossy forest on an... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-26 15:07:42
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you will always have a little place inside of me that's all yours.  you were the first person i ever loved that way.  no matter what happens or where we wind up, i kno that i'll always... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-27 02:38:04
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  RIP Diego boy was i right about paying for staying up so late.  i don't kno how i managed to get up this morning & much less how i maintained any kind of... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-27 13:27:11
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it's always sort of a roller coaster after a certain point.   or is it a see-saw?  both?  that would be a crazy amusement park ride!!  a rollercoaster with cars that... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-27 17:03:02
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not even bothering to re-post what i just lost.  i.  am.   so.   angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-28 10:40:47
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the hardest part of your job as a mother arrived a long time ago & you still have yet to see the task that lays before you.  (or perhaps you indeed see it but instead choose to ignore... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-28 15:30:00
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today is my uncle's birthday (he died this past July)….. I was walking downstairs to get my lunch around 2:45pm when the music coming thru the headphones connected to my cell phone... Read More
Posted by: foxx_flie on 2008-03-28 16:55:00
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