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I am hurting and I want to scream at my daughter. She has lied to me for the last year and has been deceiving me and then all of a sudden she picked up and left me with no warning. only a letter written by her and some stranger that does not even love God. I am so mad at her right now and I have to write this here instead of telling her. But if she was standing right before me at this very second and I would be honest I would tell her that she has hurt me more than anyone ever has in my life. She should have not let a boy in my house without my permission. She couldn't wait to have him over when I went away for a weekend. She deceived me and I don't know when I will be able to trust her again or believe her. She is ruining her life and hurt me so much. And if she really loved me she would come home and do things the right way. but no, all she cares about is this evil boy and his evil mother. She is living with pigs and they are evil. If that boy loved her like he wrote in that letter , he would not have separated her and her mama. he would have let her start college and get an education, all he wanted was to separate us and have full influence on her. All I wanted was for her to serve the Lord and now she is living with this evil boy and his mother and all they care about is their ugly selves. I am trying so hard to forgive and not hurt but i have to be honest and say that she is being so selfish and I cannot believe she did this. I want to wake up and it would be over. all a dream, but is not happening. She left with a stranger I did not know, I worried myself sick for days, she left me no way of contacting her. I wish she knew. I wish see knew what she did to me. My heart broke that night. My heart broke. It fell and broke and I cant seem to get the pieces together. Just when I think its looking better that big fat old evil satan stabs me with a dart. I will praise God the day Jesus throws satan in the pit and locks him up, I PRAISE JESUS FOR THAT. I CANT WAIT. I AM SO SICK OF EVIL. ALL I WANT IS JESUS. I AM TIRED OF HAVING EVIL THOUGHTS IN MY HEART, I AM TIRED OF SEEING IT IN THE WORLD AND SICK OF IT BEING IN MY DAUGHTER. ALL I WANTED WAS FOR HER TO SERVE JESUS. I DONT CARE WHO SHE MARRIES AS LONG AS HE SERVES AND LOVES JESUS. I DONT CARE IF HE IS DIRT POOR OR IF HE IS FAT OR SKINNY OR UGLY OR STUPID OR HANDSOME OR WORKS FOR MCDONALD'S. I JUST WANT HER TO SERVE JESUS AND MARRY SOMEONE WHO LOVES GOD!!!!!!!!
SHE WAS SO SELFISH!!!! SHE COULD HAVE WAITED UNTIL ONE YEAR OF SCHOOL, ONLY 8 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!
BUT NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE HAD TO LISTEN TO THE EVIL BOY AND RUN OFF AND BREAK HER MAMA'S HEART, WAS I PERFECT? NO WAY!! BUT SHE DID NOT NEED TO DO THIS TO ME.... I LOVE HER, I LOVE HER, AND WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME, AND WHY DOESN'T SHE COME HOME AND MAKE IT RIGHT? I JUST WANT THINGS BACK THE WAY THEY WERE.
IF SHE WOULD HAVE LEFT AND GOT AN APT. ON HER OWN AND MOVED OUT LIKE THAT. THEN IT WOULD HAVE BEEN HER HOUSE NOT MINE AND SINNED IN IT ALL SHE WANTED, I FEEL LIKE SHE DEFILED MY HOME. SHE ........SHE ............VIOLATED MY FREEDOM AND MY HOUSE ... SHE BROKE MY RULES AND DID NOT CARE FOR MY BELIEF AT ALL!!!!!!!!
IF SHE WAS PAYING THE BILLS IT WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT.....SHE WOULD NOT EVEN HARDLY CLEAN THE HOUSE..... SHE WOULD NOT GET A JOB OR TRY TO MAKE FRIENDS OR MEET PEOPLE AT CHURCH OR ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE MUST HATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WOULD SHE DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!! SHE COULD NOT DO WITHOUT THAT BOY FOR A YEAR THAT SHE HAD TO VIOLATE MY HOME AND MY HEART?
I DON'T KNOW HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE SURE LET ME SPEND ALL MY MONEY ON HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DID NOT BOTHER HER ONE BIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE DAY BEFORE SHE LEFT SHE LET ME TAKE HER SHOPPING AND SPEND ALL KINDS OF MONEY ON HER AND SHE DID NOT LET IT BOTHER HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I AM HER MAMA..............I AM HER MAMA........................ NOW, I AM NOTHING TO HER..................................nothing................ .these evil people have her now,.................................i have nothing to do with her...............one day though...........she will see .............they will see................JESUS WILL OPEN THEIR EYES AND SHOW THEM THEY WERE WRONG...................i don't even have to be there or see it.........because i know all the truth will come out................................
what if someone stole that woman's daughter from her............ and i just sat by and watched it happen?................................she would be singing a different tune about my daughter............................i hate evil................
i yearn for heaven................................i yearn to see my SAVIOR..........
I CANT WAIT FOR THE RAPTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHAT A GLORIOUS DAY THAT WILL BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................she should have done it the right way.............if someone reads this and they are about to break their mamas heart................dont do it.........there has to be another way...........you can never have another mama...................she loved me......... once.....................i know she did................she loved me.....................
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Posted by forgiveher on 2009-10-31 02:56:12 | Rating: | Views: 26
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