I woke up this morning and my pillow was wet with tears.  I had been crying in my sleep again and I don't know why.

I drove to work in a daze, snapping at anyone that so much as said a word to me, trying not to cry, trying to pretend that everything was ok.

I'm sitting at my desk, sporadically crying, and I have no control.  I have no reason.  The tears just keep rolling down my face.  And if they aren't rolling down my face they are blocking my throat and making my head spin.

Why can't I make it stop?

I just want everything to be ok.  I am tired of feeling so alone.  Noone around me seems to understand.

I want it to stop.