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there may another night where I don,t give a shit! is that the only way to go.I was going out the door to work,and for some reason,(its so weird or sickening)I cann,t spell pathetic,she after allowing me to eat a pork chop and some radish decides to fuck with with my mind.
In another story the tiawan bitch called up and gave me the ultimatium,get out,make sure I call in her unemployment. So now Iam fucking going out of control,even contiplating hitting the vodka bottle at work,of course that will get me in a world of shit. So why did this happend because she was looking up my email to look at her relatives pictures and clicked on a advertisment for a dating service.
So much for a happy day of kissing ass to stay out of trouble.Well I have 5,000 dollars in a untapped credit card. A broken down old van and no balls to go out there whip ass.Just bury my problems in a booze bottle.
She is the master of mind fucking,Me I don,t know flaoting mindlessly through space attacked by the mean and thoughless,the shits of the world who prey on the weak and feable.
well I think you collect your stuff and make door what ever or do something really really stupid or some out of control act and end up in prison ,getting boned up the ........ .I wonder cons are smart,would figure out Iam a wimp and that would be it. Sad all the crap I have taken from her and end up in jail sad sad fucking sad.
So I would pray to God to help let loose,let go or what ever.
I couldn,t do it alone,maby with the help of the booze bottle
I went out and smoked another cigarette. No no booze untile I get off.I need to fix the dam email accounts and most certainly get rid of one or two of them. I need to to get level headed. I need to get my head out of personnel dating sites(never did any good)
People are jerks on them anyway. Its very sad because I think I could get my self together and formulate a plan or something.
Anyway I dread,drivinig around aimlessly. Booze is not the answer,but what is I feel I don,t have the character to get it together.
Anyway Iam tired of this being a burder,Iam tired of life being a burden. Anyway here Iam blogging this away knowing in my fucked subconscious I will go crawling back then you never know
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I used to get these movies on the internet however ,a message appeared one day about fixing the servers.BS It doesn,t take that long to fix servers . So I figure the web site has been busted.
Iam caught between going home or sleeping in the back of my van. Iam so ti
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Posted by flipmaster on 2008-02-10 17:05:20 | Rating: | Views: 35
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