I think coming here is keeping me stable(not!). I get a sweet attack so I stop at the grocery store and get 2 cany bars and a loaf of bread.Eat one candy bar coming to work. My wife is from taiwan,she wants to go there Feb 2008.I don,t speak chinese ,even though I have been married to her since 1977.The year I gave my life away.but I never had a life to give away.(Iam depressed) The night goes on 255am more patrols. There never is enough time to do anything.I hate it when I go thru the same routine.I dread having any contact with my supervisor,mainly because  of the same old Bs.The frigging timesheet I would quite over this time sheet.Thats stupid though uh!.Whatever.My shift is only 8hr.I have only five real hours to play with Well have to check email time is running out I just feel like I need to loose it once and for all(just fucking stop taking the crap anymore not from her or any one else

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