all blogs cann,t paint a rosey picture of birds singing and a bright summer day.

Do I live a normal life.What is normal. No its a matter of programing,maby I was born the way Iam. However I was born and here Iam wondering who Iam ,acting out some life or obessions that control me.

The point is tommorow is going to come. The worst possible day for me.I pretend alot. What choice do you have. Two days off,over time overtime. I really pray for release.

One bright note I took my blood pressure at Wal mart and it was low.
Have you ever been in a "Zone" I mean I feel like I have injected with a drug that shuts off all your emotions . Its an automatic adjustment to pain. Well Iam rambling ,I suppose I will think of something eliquinte to say after I sign off.

Bye Dave