W (wife) went to a friends house and from there will go to another friends house. So time to play. So did what I have wanted to do,I think I had so much tension, even 30 minutes would have been time enough to get rid of ot. Its all well and good ,released the tension, ka boom!! well at my age it more like ka pop. took a shower ,as mentioned she called and said she would be gome longer.Iam glad I took care of matters Back to normal(for me) The big strain of doing the taxes is over .Now the IRS will grade my paper so to speak .Hopefully no letters. Unfortunately over the years (w) she (s) has fucked things up also because of my emotional and psychological fear of her temper (scared of authority figures) dependence etc all the above she has made some pretty awful financial errors .where we ended up paying taxes(every freaking yearr) would explain what goes in head ,its complex so maby later

as usual Iam zoned out tired,need to get ready for louisiana. Bus trip woopee Today went down town and brought a check to her stock broker .The woman(her,she,wife) puts me in a state of paranoia

So Iam walking back to my car and I see some officers(security)inside a building(same company as mind)I stop and say”good looking white shirts) One is an old man .looking bewildered ,in a dirty white shirt.The other is a ate up(no doubt in charge sgt chevrons on his collar) He has a shaven head so It makes him double ate up . I said I used to work in the building where they are . He starts telling me all this professional crap how the patrols should be done and I would have to be taught the patrols. the right way. Umm In case you didn,t know a lot of security isn’t rocket science patrol of the building where they were is simple and not involved. .It your presence that counts and of course ,don,t get me wrong,don,t screw off do your job. The sgt in the white shirt was ate up because he is apparently in charge of the site and more or less has to take it seriously.The site is run down. I hope I don,t run into the guy anymore.