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I finally got tired of watching jar head a war movie so I turned it off.Its 925 pm and Iam killing time,because a guy called in sick and Iam suppose to work untile 4am. So I keep wishing for more time to do things and now I have it.Actually maby 3hr extra becasue the supervisor comes in at 330am.
I keep denying the problems I have and just live in some kind of dead zone.
I keep thinking about my life and how I have put myself in a mental prison of my own design.
As usual Iam running around getting ready for the end of the shift.I had fun watching some movies on the computer,however Iam not sure that will last
As far as home,I expect I will be greeted with the usual massaging and scratching,why is this such a problem to me? Ist I get off work and Iam tired and I want to wind down.This is not the case as even before I change my clothes,she will start rapping off orders.
Its tormenting to me as she has a sharp temper,and will let you know,if the scratching is going wrong,with the usual threats. That is why I keep a vodka bottle in the car. Of course that doesn,t help much for being sharp for the scratching.(an attribute from kideny disease)
Just posting this makes me think of the futility of continuing the little sessions with her.I can understand she doesn,t want dialysis I wouldn,t.
Its so hard
well Iam looking at the clock and I had better wrap this up as the sup is due in to relieve me.I could work a double if I had to
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Posted by flipmaster on 2008-01-28 01:23:59 | Rating: | Views: 39
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