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Sunday wanked the wanger fairly good results on a scale of 1 to 10 (10 good) this scale based on no prostate in the house. I came in at a 9 . Iam still not over the fact that the fountain is dry. Of course after the biopsy things started to go down hill anyway. So when cancer is in your body things can never be the same. Iam starting to secretly develop a don,t give a shit attitude.Along with the attitude comes the fact that I have a little money set aside. Very Little by today's standards.
Going to the casino with her is getting old. Its every weekend. Otherwise we don,t go anywhere or don,t have any friends. I think at one time we did things. She is a compulsive gambler. I like gambling and have tapped my mad money fund on several occasions.
Slot machines in my opinion have certain times when they pay off (60$ to $100) Iam a penny player Once and a while I may put in the max to see if I win the big one. Putting in $5 dosn,t do the job in a lot of cases. Of you don,t put in the max then hit the bonus that doesn,t pay that much.
Colonscopy Prep from hell:
Do not prep for a colonscopy and have your appoint later in the day(the day after prep)Your starving,your energy level is low. So prolonging the agony makes it even worse.
I especially do not want to know the results from the colonscopy. Some fucking doctor comes in and says" well you had this many polyps removed and blah blah and blah fuck you !!!. Since you were so close to my ass, "kiss my ass" .
She:calls.wants to know where a street is,I ask whats on the street. Amazing she wants a yes or no answer hangs up. You may say "duh" I believe some of us face our on little hell. Mine is no life,dependency or what ever you want to call it. Iam stuck in my own little vacuum. You stay in the vacuum ,because that's the only way you know. Alot of us want change. She is a of a personality where I would constantly get harassed and stalked(for lack ofa better word) if I were to make my break (what break)
Change involves a lot more emotional turmoil of a different kind. Maby 1% of us ever makes it. Iam beginning to come down to her level of thinking. The kissy face routine becomes the norm ,the only way to survive. kissy face takes its toil ,because I believe its normal to want to make decisions in your life and disagree without reprisal YES reprisal.. In other words you go against me and Iam going to have to make your hurt one way or another.
The reprisal routine either ends up with really dirty nasty comments. with the ocassional f word or mf word thrown in .There is a whole inventory of crap she can pull out of her hat .. Some is warranted. Maby-- Its hard to describe her personality or maby not so hard. Its like her self esteem is inflated 50 times over.. Can I say her mean self righess attide drove me away or did I assume some hidden agenda using her as a excuse.
Dave
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Posted by flipmaster on 2009-06-22 13:29:24 | Rating: | Views: 43
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